Introspective Today

I've been doing more reading and less talking the past few days. I've been reading current blogs and past blogs. I've searched for blogs of people who've been extraordinarily successful on their Spark journey, and then I've gone back to read their first month or two of blogs.

It's been very insightful.

It seems that all of us focus on the minutiae in the beginning. We agonize over every morsel we are eating, struggle with exercise, agonize over how to fit it all in to a busy lifestyle. It's hard. It's work. We aren't sure we want more work.

But then at SOME POINT the successful people make a break from the rest of us.

They stop struggling. They stop trying to enforce their will on the situation. They stop looking at each social event or office donut or busy day as a battle to the death between Good and Evil. As a battle they are doomed to lose.

They simply...let go and let God.

By that I mean they just seem to come to a state of acceptance...with who they are and what they have to do to be WHO they want to be. They quit struggling. They quit saying to themselves, "it's not fair that I can't eat everything I want." They stop trying to HAVE everything.

They just let go. They accept. They even embrace.

I heard money expert Jean Chatkzy talk about people who compulsively overspend until they are tens of thousands of dollars in debt. What she said was so profound I wrote it down. She said, "People overshop to fill the void between who they are and who they want to be."

People overeat to fill a void between who they are and who they want to be, too.

I am my own worst enemy. I am the one standing in the way between who I am now and who I want to be!

I'm tired of struggling. I'm tired of feeling resentful that the whole thing isn't fair. I'm tired of trying to have it all, my way. I'm ready to let go. I'm ready to move forward to the person I want to be.

Join me. Let's do this.