been a while and very crazy
Tuesday, June 29, 2010
Things have been bonkers- good, bad, happy and sad. So much has happened since I was on here last and I can say that for the first time since I've been on Spark (over 5 yrs) that I haven't even logged my food.
Where to start, so much drama-
Well first, my mother fell off of a 7 foot wall in her yard in May. My mother is in poor health to begin with (she's only 52 but has ruined her life with drugs and alcohol). She just had most of her intestines and colon removed in Dec. Either way she fell off of this wall in her yard resulting in a broken neck, 4 broken ribs, a collapsed lung (from the broken ribs), broken arm and broken hand. She is doing better now but it's still rough. She has a friend staying with her that she's had for many years so that's good at least.
Then also in May my husband and I went through some problems. Just your typical arguments but they left me upset and bewildered. Luckily we've worked most of it out.
So that was all the bad stuff.
Now for the good stuff- well I haven't exactly been losing much more weight- I was down to 184.2 for half a second. However despite me not losing much more weight I have to say that my confidence has soared! I have been suffering from hair loss since my early 20s. I was getting my hair cut and talking to my hair dresser about how I really hate that I have such thin and balding hair. That I felt like it really did impact how I felt about myself. She looks at me and says- "so get a wig, everyone does it. Do you think the stars look that good because they have perfect hair?". I look at her in shock. This had never occurred to me. I know lots of women that wear wigs but in all honesty I don't know very many "white" women that do. But then I started thinking- why don't a wear a wig? If I have the ability to transform myself, why am I holding myself back. So I went home and talked to my husband about it. He told me to do whatever made me feel better. Needless to say, I am a wig convert now. I went to a couple really ritzy wig places in my area and found one that I fell in love with. It was expensive but well to be quite honest, very well worth it. I was nervous about wearing it to work the first day, worried what people would say and well I shouldn't have worried. I work with a bunch of guys and they aren't exactly observant so it was pretty much a "like your new hair cut". It's been over a month and I will never go without again. I love it. I love the way it makes me feel, I love the way people talk to me now and notice me. This is probably due to my own self confidence but either way I love it.
So that's my story- I'm sticking to it and wow life is good!~