Well, I had been so proud of myself yesterday - almost 3 full weeks of abstaining from overeating and turning to food to deal with my emotions. And as usual, just as I was feeling self-congratulatory, something broke.
I think I was nervous about how I would handle fasting today. I had ridden my bike to and from a meeting - 60 min on hills, and I walked for about an hour. I figured then that I "deserved" to have some greasy felafel as a pre-fast dinner. But I was hungry so early - 5 p.m. Later I got ice cream.
And then, because I felt guilty about eating almost a cup of Ben & Jerry's, I ate a whole lot of raisins.
As I mentioned in a previous blog post, I have sugar issues, so undoubtedly that was a bad idea. But if I was logical about all of this, I wouldn't have a problem, right?
In the end, all of this is fixable. I am, after all, not eating today until 8 p.m. and I just need to be sure to take it easy and light when I do eat again tonight.
My guess is that I consumed 3,000 calories yesterday. When I figure that I burned about 800 through exercise, it's not THAT bad. I just don't want to sabotage my efforts. So far I've lost about 6 lbs and gained a little muscle, I think. My clothes are slightly loser and my legs look a lot more toned.
I need to not let this slip up send me down an ugly path.
I will use this fast day to reflect and to appreciate food, drink, and all of the other things that I should be grateful for in my life, along with mourning the tragedies which this day commemorates.
I will take a walk soon to break up my boring work day.