The whole me!
Saturday, June 26, 2010
This week I had an epiphany about the pattern I get into when I'm trying to lose weight. If I can get started and invested in the process, I follow a pretty standard pattern. First I am faithful to the plan and start feeling positive. That's good. But the next thing that happens is that to counter my natural inclination to go back to my old habits, I start to get more fanatic and neurotic about food and exercise.
I want to have a healthy relationship with food.
Not only that, but it's vital that I do, at least from the outside perspective. I do not want my kids to know that I'm doing anything other than eating healthy. I want to teach them about food without letting them see me get into this "if I cut the crusts off the sandwich, I'll have 15 more calories" mode.
Back to the epiphany...
I discovered that instead of diving deeper into the food/exercise/calorie aspect of being healthy and looking and feeling good about myself, I was going to try and focus on other things that make me feel and look my best. So my current "Whole Me" project is going to be working on my keratosis pilaris, a skin condition that requires some consistent attention to treat.
I have no idea if anyone will read this, but I thought it would be helpful to document some of this stuff for myself so I don't forget.