Yet Another Day 1
Thursday, June 24, 2010
I've not been on Spark much lately and guess what I've been overeating........... which is in danger of turning into a total binge wiping out all my good work and effort of late. Monday's weigh in was kind I only put one pound on though I weighed again today and what do you know there's another one back there with it. From what I've been eating lately I'll be extremely lucky if that is where the scale stops.
So why haven't I been on spark? I've been in denial and hiding, if I hide its not happening right?........... This morning I've reread my own blogs about how well I was doing, should have read them last week............. I am now feeling annoyed with myself, why oh why am I self sabotaging again?
I'm in a really good place with the rest of my life........ hell I'm happy, so why am I doing this to myself again?
OK rant over, enough with the beating myself up. I have to get committed and start again.
I need to be accountable I can see from my older posts I do best when blogging here regularly. Reading others blogs and the message boards also helps so time to get back on track.
I love to have good streaks going and to be in control. At the moment I don't feel like I am in control.
So today I start again, I need to make some commitments............
1. to blog daily about my progress whether good or bad, (no more hiding)
2. to get out and walk those dogs at least five times per week (actually I have been doing this)
3 track everything I eat.......... this is the biggy