What does it take?
Sunday, June 20, 2010
So from the outside, I know that I am unhappy, no...miserable, because of my weight issue. I have ballooned to 239. I want to lose weight, I want to be happier with myself and feel better about myself. I want my children to see a good example, not the lazy "fluffy" mommy that they know now. I have disappointed myself and don't know how to turn things around.
Every week for at least the last year, I have started over every week. I do well on Sunday, and maybe Monday, but then something sets me off of the wrong path for the rest of the week. Making any headway I had made disappear, and ultimely I gain weight for the week. I need to break this vicious cycle and am desparate to do so, yet time and time again this has happened. Is this a motivation problem? I must not want to change bad enough otherwise I would, right? I don't know, but once again I start over this week, waiting for my 'aha' moment to change the rest of my life.