What does it take?

Sunday, June 20, 2010

So from the outside, I know that I am unhappy, no...miserable, because of my weight issue. I have ballooned to 239. I want to lose weight, I want to be happier with myself and feel better about myself. I want my children to see a good example, not the lazy "fluffy" mommy that they know now. I have disappointed myself and don't know how to turn things around.

Every week for at least the last year, I have started over every week. I do well on Sunday, and maybe Monday, but then something sets me off of the wrong path for the rest of the week. Making any headway I had made disappear, and ultimely I gain weight for the week. I need to break this vicious cycle and am desparate to do so, yet time and time again this has happened. Is this a motivation problem? I must not want to change bad enough otherwise I would, right? I don't know, but once again I start over this week, waiting for my 'aha' moment to change the rest of my life.
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    I totally understand your situation. In December, I weighed 237, pretty much where you are at. I was miserable. I had just gotten over having back surgery, so I was whollering (sp?) in my own misery, eating pretty much what I wanted. My now 15 year old daughter decided that she and I needed to commit to eating healthier. She created a "promise" type of document and a set of goals and made me sign it. I'm one of those people that if I'm given something to promise to that I feel committed. Also, if it was that important to her, then I needed to step up to the plate and do what it took to get in better condition. I decided to quit feeling sorry for myself. I began slowly by cutting calories, eating better, and adding a few exercises. I've gone from almost helpless in surgery recovery mode to walking 5 miles every other day or so and working out at the gym. I can't believe I'm saying this, but I like working out. I've dropped 34 lbs. I still have a lot to weight to lose, but is a start. You can do it too. Good luck and congrats on making the decision to begin your weight loss journey.
    3100 days ago
    I can TOTALLY relate to your dilemma!!!!! OMG! That is what happens to me-week after week.....I believe it is a motivation problem. You have to tell yourself that YOU CAN DO THIS!!! Don't give up! I know you want this and it will happen! Continue to be strong and if you mess up one day then don't beat yourself up about it. Just make the changes happen the next day!

    Keep working on it! You will succeed for your kiddos but most importantly yourself!! :)
    3100 days ago
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