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169: A Tale

Saturday, June 19, 2010

Early in 2009, I saw the scale reach the lowest weight I had ever seen (as an adult) – 169. It was a moment of excitement; I was in the 160s, only 39 pounds from my goal weight. It was vindicating, exciting, and all of those other adjectives that are synonymous with relief and joy.

It was also brief.

As the summer wore on, I started to loosen up on my eating habits. I was busy training dogs for agility competitions, working, socializing and balancing life. My boyfriend loved to go to restaurants, and I was eager to indulge in the foods that I had long denied myself. By the end of August I was pushing 180 again. Not a huge jump, but still not a step in the right direction.

In the fall I tried to get myself back under control, but with moderate success. Christmas came and went. More weight came and stayed. The evil voice in my WII Fit told me that I was Obese (again). That was a hard blow to take, especially after two years of hard work.

After Christmas I slowly got myself back together. Working out daily, watching my caloric intake, and becoming moderately involved with SparkPeople. By February I was back down to 175, which also meant I was below the “obese line” – and that’s when I left for Southern Ontario.

A couple of weeks later I was back to over 180.

Angry with myself, disappointed in having nearly ruined what I worked so hard for, I started basically from scratch. As I mentioned in my last blog, since April I have had to reboot myself and become more active in the Spark community (it really does help!)…

So this week…when I stepped on to the scale and saw it…there was a momentary thrill…


My lowest weight.

I weighed myself two days in a row, just to be sure…

And two days in a row, I saw it…


That is weigh loss euphoria.

This summer I am facing the same crazy schedule as last summer, except with schoolwork thrown in. I still have a restaurant loving boyfriend – who complains about my influence in causing him to be a little more health-driven. The difference is – this summer I won’t let it get away from me.

July 19th is my 30th – I want to cross that line at 165 (160 would be nice – 30 more pounds to lose on my 30th birthday, but I need to be realistic)

168, I’m coming for you!
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    emoticon you inspire me THANK YOU!!!
    2780 days ago
  • FITNESS134
    Thanks for your encouragement. In return I want to encourage you to reach for your goals. You can do it.
    2876 days ago
    Don't you sometimes wish you could wake up and weigh 130? I do! I can tell that you will reach your goal some day. You are an inspiration. You have faced struggles and overcome them. You still struggle. These are the things that make us stronger. I hope that I can have at least half your strength along my journey. Thank you for sharing your story.
    2893 days ago
  • CHIFANG130
    You can do it!!! My weight has been creeping up on me after I went away for a week vacation. It's amazing that in just one week your body would do when you are not eating the right things and exercise 30 mins at least daily. I told myself that never to give up. I have my goal and I am going for it!

    2899 days ago
    My last year was similar. I was down and up and down and now I'm up. But the big truth you mentioned in your blog is that this Spark community really does help! I'm doing the "one foot in front of the other" thing right now and I'm feeling good about it. What originally motivated me was a picture as well. My husband and I were on a couple vacations one year. Most every picture of me made me cringe. I'm looking forward to hearing that you passed that old "168" by on your way down. I think you can, I think you can, I know you can, you know you can!

    2917 days ago
    You're more aware of the pitfalls than you have ever been. You are determined. You have a full month before your birthday. You know everything you need to do in order to accomplish this. You will accomplish this, I'm sure of it. I was so touched by the 26 lessons you had learned by losing 100+ -- you will use all that wisdom you acquired to get to that goal and you will be deliriously happy on your 30th birthday.
    You only need to keep going slowly in the right direction. emoticon

    2921 days ago
    So proud of you. emoticon I don't know who said it, but " It's not not how many times you fall that counts, it's how many times you get up!" Try taking it slow , one day at a time and really, really plan. emoticon Because you've done it before. All the best to you. P.S. .Ask God's help at the beginning of each day, and ask Him to intervene at those times when you are weak, because then He is strong. emoticon
    2921 days ago

    Comment edited on: 6/20/2010 2:54:36 PM
    You can do!!!!! I know you can! You are such an inspiration. I think I will go out for my walk today. Since I went to San Fran for the weekend all I have done is eat well. No walks and you made me feel better to go out and do it. If anyone can get to 165 by July its you!
    2921 days ago
    Sometimes we need those setbacks to get it straight in our minds what we really want. What I have found that works for me since I have several friends that love to go out and eat, is when my food comes I ask for a container to go and pack away about 3/4 of the food. Since the amount of calories in restaurant food is probably equal to 4 meals. This actually is quite nice because I spend more time enjoying the company than eating and I also get 3 more meals from that original meal. I am sure your have the right mindset to reach your goals that you have set for your birthday. Keep up the great work. Remember emoticon
    2921 days ago
    emoticon emoticon emoticon 169lbs oh how i dream of that.you can do it and be at the weight you want for your birthday if you drink your water,eat your fruit and veg,stay in calorie range and exercise.only you can do it,just like only i9 can do the same for me. emoticon i can do it,we can do this. emoticon and have faith my friend.
    2921 days ago
    AAAAhhhhhhhh emoticon that is emoticon
    I know how you feel, I have done the same with the 139 saw it and saw it again but some how I leave it-- going the wrong way.
    I never give up, just start over.

    I am sooooo happy for you

    2922 days ago
  • GARYO12
    Congratulations! You can do this!!! emoticon
    2922 days ago
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