Some revelations of sorts...
Thursday, June 17, 2010
Today I had a couple of epiphanies while at work. The first has to do with some things that have been going on in the office. Basically, we have a big ol' tax filing deadline coming up (we file on behalf of our clients). There are a bunch of new procedures in place because the government is requiring that everything be filed electronically. This means a whole bunch of things, the largest obstacle being having software that will create and upload the information to the correct servers. Add to that the fact that the owners of the company are now on vacation for two weeks and have been trying to cram as much as they could into the last couple of weeks and you get one rather stressful office.
That being said, a phrase that I have been hearing quite frequently has been "Yeah, but what if...." It's like they're trying to tackle every conceivable scenario and address them before they actually happen. The owner of the company actually said something about not wanting to be three years down the road and having something that was done even remotely wrong coming back to bite us.
Now, to me, it seems like three years down the road is not something that we need to be concerned about. But maybe I'm weird because I'm outside of the situation.
Here's the deal, though. My co-workers are so trapped in the land of "What-if's" that they can't seem to move beyond that to enter in to the land of "What-can-actually-be-done-now
". What I mean to say is that they're letting their fear of the future not allow them to actually focus on things in the present that they can control.
I find that, so often in life, I'm in that very same position. I get so focused on things that (in all likelihood) will not happen that I forget to actually live in the moment. I forget to be present in the present. And by doing so, I miss out on so many opportunities that can be had.
One of the key things that has been happening to me is I keep asking myself a question that one of the contestants on the Biggest Loser asked. "What if I can't do this?" And I love her mom's response to that question "Yeah, but what if you can?"
That's the attitude that I want to face life with. Instead of focusing on the potential for failure, I want to focus on the potential for success. It starts with small, achievable goals and snowballs from there. I'm already doing far more than I ever thought I would. And now is my chance to do even more than that.
The other epiphany that I had earlier today was that eating is meant to be a supremely pleasurable thing. It's one of the few activities where all 5 senses get involved at the same time. You see some lovely arrangement of food, you can smell it cooking, you can feel the texture of the food as it is picked up by your hands or rolls around in your mouth, you can hear the noise it makes as you bite into it and chew it, and (of course) you get to taste it.
We are not meant to feel guilty for eating, but at the same time we are not meant to enjoy eating so much that we indulge in it far too often. It is not meant to become a crutch to lean upon and make us feel better when we are blue, angry, stressed, what have you.
It is simply meant to be enjoyed and experienced in a complete and unique manner.