Tuesday, June 15, 2010
Ok, here's the warning...this could get long and drawn out and not always related to my food journey. But need to vent some stuff and so here is where I'm doing that!!!!
My vacation was for the most part wonderful. We visited with my half sister and her mother first. What is so awesome is my sister is recovering from breast cancer. She had her last chemo last month. She is very young so this was a shock. But she is so amazing!! Her mother is pretty cool too. They knew that I was on a healthy eating journey. So they made sure that there was food for me to eat. They took us to one restaurant where it was mostly health food and salads. It was yummy!! Then instead of going out to dinner, they bought healthy food for dinner and breakfast to accommodate me. It was awesome really!!! We also went hiking in the mountains. It was just an awesome day!!!
Unfortunately we didn't get to spend much time with them. We were on to the other side of the state to spend time with my mother's family. Things actually started off pretty good. We don't have a large family but we all get along pretty well. There were 2 reasons we all got together this year. One was for my grandmother's memorial service. She passed away in November and you just don't have memorials too often in Wyo in November. Plus where she wanted to be was impossible to get to in the winter. Hence the memorial now. Plus we have a large party with my aunt and uncle's friends at their property where we fish and camp and rough it for a few days. So the memorial went really well. It was very nice. The food was awesome, but fattening!! I have to say I didn't watch my diet too much at all. I ate what was there. But probably not as much as I would have before and only once did I have a desert. So I did do better then I would have done otherwise.
Ok, so Thursday we had the memorial and then as a fun event we had a memorial pinochle tournament. (my family takes this card game very seriously)!!! But it was all fun!!! I didn't win but that was all ok! We went camping Friday-Sunday. Weather, not so great...kind of rainy, but not really cold and not windy so that was good. Again the food....amazing!!! But I think I did pretty well over all! I did drink quite a bit through the weekend too!!! Which I don't do all the time so allowed myself this one time.
But here's where it gets fun. (not really)!! My mom now lives close to my sister and her husband. I knew they hadn't been treating her too well before we went, but she always begged me not to say anything cause it would make it worse with her and her ability to see my niece who she adores!! Well they were down right ugly to my mom this weekend. They also brought a friend that no one liked and that was lazy and rude to everyone. So the weekend goes by, my sister and family are not getting along with many. The rest of us were just going to be quiet about it until after the trip so that there were no problems. But it got harder and harder and harder. Until Sunday afternoon and all hell broke loose. There was yelling, cussing, threats.....my mom will never be allowed to see their daughter again and not allowed to go to their house again. I am sure I am included in this too. Honestly it is not bothering me for me. I don't get along with them much as it is but now will never speak to her until her husband and friend apologize to my mother and my family. She doesn't see that they are in the wrong so you can see it will go round and round. Needless to say it put a small damper on our vacation!!! The sad part is my mom is a really really good grandmother. she would give her life for her grandkids and actually has given up more then she should have to for them. I am planning on writing my sister a very long and detailed letter with everything that I have wanted to say to her in the past but didn't for my mom's sake. I'm trying to wait a few days too so I don't write it in anger. It probably won't matter, they don't care, but hopefully it will finally make me feel better about some things. (and you know we think it stemmed from the tournament that was supposed to be fun) So needless to say I am now a sister and a brother in law and a niece shorter in my family. I hope someday that they do apologize and want to be part of the family again. It will be really sad for them if they don't. I'm actually feeling better about it all then I have in a really long time. I'm excited to finally get to say my peace. I am trying not to do it in anger though cause that would just make me the bad guy. I'm going to be rational and articulate in my letter to her. It might take me a while to do it though, cause right now I'm irate...LOL!
Btu through all of that...I got home, after driving in a blizzard....and only gained 1.2 pounds. I did try to walk alot, but it was so rainy it was hard. But was super happy that the weight gain wasn't 10 pounds cause that is what I felt I had gained. My stomach did not like the food I was putting in it for most of the weekend. I had to eat tumms all weekend when I haven't had them for months! But people were so impressed with my weight loss and my non smoking!! That was awesome! I only had a small minute after the blowout where I thought I could have smoked. But then what would that help, NOTHING!! So I didn't! Very proud of myself too!! I know this is a very long blog, but had to start getting some stuff out. I missed all my friends and missed sparkpeople alot while I was gone!!! Glad to be home, although it is freaking hot here!!!!