Diary of a Mad, Fat Woman Part XXI
Monday, June 14, 2010
Weight Loss: Going well. I am addicted to walking. It's a weird obsession. Ever since I received my pedometer as a birthday gift last month, I think about my steps/day all the time. I love just putting on my Ipod, and walking while I ponder this journey, and other areas in my life. It's a good habit that replaces eating when I am bored, sad, celebrating, or just have something to think about. I am doing about 10,000 each weekday, and 15,000 on the weekend. It adds up, and it is definitely helping my waistline. I have also increased my workload at the gym with interval training on the cardio machines and more weight/resistance on the machines. I also have been trying some new stuff for my core. In about another month, I should be able to go down a jean size-Yay!
Work: Really busy. With the flooding in the Midwest, the claims volume has increased significantly. I am hoping that they will offer additional OT (I have already worked some last week). I would love to have extra cash after paying off the credit card that I used for last vacation to Colorado, and would also like to have more spending money in August when I go to Oregon.
Love Life: Still holding out. I went out with J (one of the internet guys from last blog) for the first time on Sunday. He called Saturday night, and a lot of stuff is going on at work for him, so he has been super busy. We had lunch at a pizza joint, and I didn't feel a speckle of chemistry. Not even the slightest spark. In fact, I think our personalities are so incompatible that I had a hard time spending an hour and some with him. I couldn't picture myself with him short term or long term. Nothing was wrong with him physically, but he reminded me of my bff's husband (who is good for my bff, but not for me). I feel as if he is the kind of guy that my friends and family would choose for me. He has all the right stats: Good job (and income), nice, religious, stable, sweet, and attractive. However, when it's not right, it's just not right. I would feel bad about leading him on, so I didn't answer his email or his phone call later that afternoon. He didn't leave a voicemail, so I think he got the hint.
I haven't heard from T (the guy that I met for ice cream) since Friday. He is out of commission with poison ivy for another week or so (I know it's not an excuse, because he had a couple posts on FB about it). I sent him a text to get a hold of me when he feels up to it. I don't know that he will. I would love to go out with him again, if he asks, but I am open to other things too. The ball is in his court at this point, so I guess I will leave it up to him for now. If he doesn't get a hold of me soon, I will not chase him.
To be honest, I feel uneasy when I date or talk to more than one guy at a time. Before I met J in person, I felt sick to my stomach thinking of how to sort out feelings for more than one potential suitor in my mind. On one hand, single people should be single. I am the last person to limit my options and throw all my feelings at one guy. However, if there is more than one in the picture, I feel that I may not be giving one of them (or both) my best self. I don't think I will be doing that again.