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Frustrations - FIGHT

Monday, June 14, 2010

Hi everyone, I hope you're all having a wonderful Monday morning and doing much better with your journeys than me today!

Today I'm a bit frustrated with myself, the frustration actually started yesterday. I had gotten down to 131.4 lbs and my inches had gone down from what they had been. This was before hubby came home.
Since hubby's been home, we've consumed foods that I'd been trying to stay away from. He's been supportive through this whole journey, it's just he's not very supportive on the food side, where I have the hardest time resisting and having the self control over eating what I know I should not. Anyway, since he's been home I've gained back the 5 lbs I LOST some of it was during 1 of the challenges I was doing. Not only have I been eating wrong, but I've been so lazy the past several days/weeks & haven't exercised much. I know this is not the end of the world, but I know I know how to have the self control over things, but it seems like it goes out the window when hubby's around, lol. My sister commented the other day that my legs and rear have gotten smaller, which I don't really think so, but ok, I'll take the compliment, I like hearing things like that. LOL

And please don't get me wrong, I do NOT blame any of this on my hubby and him being around, I love him for all the support & encouragement he gives. He doesn't always support the way I think he should, but is that his fault? NOPE When it comes to food and the sweets that are put in front of me, I need to be able to say NO to myself and put my foot down.

So instead of letting this get to me, I'm going to FIGHT back!

I watched the new show Losing It with Jillian on NBC last night, it was a rerun, but so what, I enjoyed watching it.

It comes on Tuesdays at 8/7c.

While watching that, I realized I don't want to let myself get like that lady. I WILL not become like she was. She FOUGHT and she's WINNING. The show inspired me to FIGHT to WIN for myself as well, instead of being frustrated and bored with exercising and eating whatever, whenever. I WILL have the self control over the food. I WILL workout, even though I don't WANT to. I WILL FIGHT BACK AND LOSE THIS 5 LBS I PUT ON, PLUS THE OTHER 5 + LBS!

I'm taking another 8 Week Battle and in this battle I plan to focus on my self control. I plan to FIGHT with all I have and EXERCISE & eat HEALTHY.

I want to be healthy, I want to lose this thing called "HYPOTHYROIDISM" it can't have me! I also want to maybe get pregnant again in the future, hubby & I have tried off and on for over 4 yrs and no luck. I know it's cause of my health partially. So I will FIGHT THIS BATTLE to be healthy and fit, if I get pregnant then I will continue to be HEALTHY.

I need help & support from my teams & friends.

Sorry for Rambling, but I feel better getting this all off of my chest, now I'm going to go FIGHT!

Thanks in advance to everyone who gives me support, encouragement & motivation when I need it most!

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    Kris, I totally know where you are coming from...My husband is super supportive and he has even started getting active but when it comes to food....well, that is another story. I get bored and want to eat so I CANNOT have sweets or junk food here because I will eat it all LOL. It is hard but I usually eat totally different food.
    3222 days ago
    Don't give up, just pick yourself up, dust yourself off and try it again.
    3226 days ago
    I agree with not beating yourself up! Forgive yourself as God forgives you when you do something wrong - and with your positive and energetic attitude you will lose that weight! emoticon Our God is an emoticon God and He and we will help you with our positive thoughts and prayers!
    Know that I continue to think of you daily and pray for you!
    God has blessed you to be a blessing to me and to others!
    Love, your sister in Christ,
    Amy L emoticon
    3233 days ago
    "I WILL workout, even though I don't WANT to."

    Sounds like you need to start looking for a physical activity that you really enjoy doing so it doesn't feel like such a chore...get out there & experiment! emoticon

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    3233 days ago
    You can do it!
    3233 days ago
  • CRBSMITH1968
    you go girl! I hope you find that exercising gives you energy and motivation to keep on keeping on - you will win the fight with this great attitude
    3233 days ago
    Kris I know you are a strong woman and will do great! Your Periwinkle team is here for you and behind you 100%!
    3233 days ago
  • FITKAT2010
    Sounds like you have the right mind set. Now, we all know that you can do it. SO JUST DO IT!
    3233 days ago
    Dont worry Kris! You CAN do it! I'm struggling with my eating too and i cant seem to break my habits but you are right we do have to keep fighting! Dont give up!! emoticon emoticon
    3233 days ago
    You've lost those 5 pounds'll do it again! The fact that you're blogging about your struggle is half the battle! Thank you for posting this, I am often guilty of finding excuses when family is around to not stay with my plan. You'll get it together, lose those 5 pounds, and then some!
    3233 days ago
    I hear you I got lazy, lax..whatever u wanna call it and gained back 7 in May...
    Got with it May 24th to now and am down 5 1/2 of those!
    U recognize they whys... now you can move forward and get with it!
    3233 days ago
  • ANTONI56
    (((Kris))) I am in agreement with Cindy dust yourself off and make tomorrow a new day! emoticon .
    3233 days ago
    baby steps! I'm right there with ya!
    3233 days ago
    Kris, you are such an inspiration to our team so remember that. Forgive yourself and move on. By chance I was looking at your page yesterday and couldn't believe those old pictures were you! You look so great and different lately. Maybe looking through some old photos would help you remember where you were and where you're going. Maybe your husband would be willing to exercise with you while he's home. Good luck, you CAN do it!!!
    3233 days ago
    Ok so you slipped. It happens from time to time. You saw what was happening and you came up with a plan of action.... good for you. Now you fight your fight....... you can do it!!!!!
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    3233 days ago
    That 60 pounds I gained since meeting my husband 4 years ago was because he made me feel comfortable. The love and caring we get from our partners sometimes blinds us to the things we are doing to our bodies.

    You have the upper hand on it. You know what you need to do and only you can do it. The support from the spouse is nice but you are the one who has to make the food choices and get up and move. So no problem, you can do this as you have inspired many of us. We are here to help you along the way. emoticon
    3233 days ago
    Concentrate on 8 servings of fruit and veggies. Maybe it'll fill you up before you can gnaw on something else.
    3233 days ago
    If you are having trouble exercising, it could be you are bored, or not liking what you are doing for exercise. You have to search and find something you actually enjoy doing, so that you will be encouraged to stick with it. If you like socializing and being competitive, take up a sport you might have been interested in, but didn't have time to do, they always have adult leagues around. Try something new, in the form of a workout DVD, you never know what might get your interest. Like music, dance? Take up ballroom, very popular right now. There is a DVD on just about any kind of exercise, usually set to music. You can always borrow them from the library before you buy, or haunt yard sales for good bargains.
    About the food, are you responsible for what is purchased and prepared for your household? If so, its up to you to make healthy choices. Sparks does old favorite recipes revamped to make them healthier, so its not like you have to prepare things with lots of fat and calories. There are ways to reduce this but still enjoy your normal meals. They even have healthy substitutes for most desserts you can think of. Check out
    You can do this. You just have to be an explorer and discover what works for you.
    This should be an uplifting journey, not drudery.
    I wish you all the best finding something to suit you!
    3233 days ago
  • no profile photo 175RACHEL175
    One day, one meal at a time. Good luck!
    3233 days ago
    Trying to live healthy when your family is not is really hard! My son is the skinniest you've ever seen, and I have to feed him all sorts of food that I can't eat myself (oily pasta, whipped cream, lots of butter on the sandwiches). It's hard sometimes, but you just have to work at it! :) I'm sure if you just put your mind to it, you'll get there! :)
    3233 days ago
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