Out in the open!
Monday, June 14, 2010
I'm wondering if anyone else is like this or is it just me?
I have a hard time talking about my weight. I can be shy in other situations but this topic is so hard for me. (Spark has helped me a lot on this.) It's like the elephant in the room that no one talks about. My family never says much about my weight. My husband gets angry before anything else. I think it is because he is afraid I am going to die younger than I should and die before him. I know that is a big thing for him, to be left alone.
I was at the doctors last week and I asked the doctor for help. I said that I needed help in all aspects of learning to be healthier. She called a program at the local medical health center and I have an appointment July 6th.
From what I understand it is a 12 week program, two visits a week. They are going to teach me about exercise and nutrition, care of my diabetes, heart etc. The cost is going to be a bit of a hardship but I figure if I can drop weight and reduce my medication then that will help defray the cost of the program.
It has taken over a week and a half to bring this up with my husband. ( Why is it so hard for me to talk about this! ) My husband was very receptive and of course says we will manage the cost factor.
I guess I get embarrassed because I have lost weight before, SOOOOOOOOoooo many times but I have not been able to maintain. I feel like it is hard to justify another bash at it especially when it costs money. Yet I feel like we only fail if we quit trying!
Am I a confused puppy or what!!!! LOL