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Monday, June 14, 2010

I'm wondering if anyone else is like this or is it just me?

I have a hard time talking about my weight. I can be shy in other situations but this topic is so hard for me. (Spark has helped me a lot on this.) It's like the elephant in the room that no one talks about. My family never says much about my weight. My husband gets angry before anything else. I think it is because he is afraid I am going to die younger than I should and die before him. I know that is a big thing for him, to be left alone.

I was at the doctors last week and I asked the doctor for help. I said that I needed help in all aspects of learning to be healthier. She called a program at the local medical health center and I have an appointment July 6th.

From what I understand it is a 12 week program, two visits a week. They are going to teach me about exercise and nutrition, care of my diabetes, heart etc. The cost is going to be a bit of a hardship but I figure if I can drop weight and reduce my medication then that will help defray the cost of the program.

It has taken over a week and a half to bring this up with my husband. ( Why is it so hard for me to talk about this! ) My husband was very receptive and of course says we will manage the cost factor.

I guess I get embarrassed because I have lost weight before, SOOOOOOOOoooo many times but I have not been able to maintain. I feel like it is hard to justify another bash at it especially when it costs money. Yet I feel like we only fail if we quit trying!

Am I a confused puppy or what!!!! LOL
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  • no profile photo BEES200
    My last special friend would always get really quiet whenever I mentioned anything to do with my weight, like he didn't know what to say and just wished I wouldn't bring it up, so you are not the only one who doesn't feel free to talk about it with the man they love. The program sounds like it will be very beneficial, especially with learning how to manage your diabetes and other health issues. Be sure to tell them about Spark as they may have ideas on how best to blend what they teach you with the tools available here to help you.
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  • SPALM01
    You can do this! We all can do this. The hardest part is the first couple of days, but the pay off is so good. I've only been using the program for a week, but in that time I have started to exercise (yes, 335 lb me, exercising!), stopped drinking soda, and started tracking everything. Now don't get me wrong, it took a lot to get me off the couch to exercise that first day, and I only did a 15 minute walk, but that was more than I've done in 15+ years. It is the little steps we take that make the most changes. Just stick with your three fast break goals and you will start to feel so much better. I'm keeping it simple, drinking my water, not drinking soda, and tracking everything. We're here for you and we can do this together. emoticon
    3206 days ago
  • GAYLE-G-63
    This is a cliche but oh so true: NEVER STOP TRYING. It's worth it!

    Just an aside, when I was finally able to call myself FAT and not any of the other niceities we tend to use, it was so liberating. There's a quote I heard long ago that I live by. Unfortuantely I don't know the author so I can't give any credit:

    "Fat DESCRIBEs me. It DOES NOT define me."

    Hope this helps.

    3206 days ago
    Hi Sweetie, I read your Spark page and I see such a beautiful young lady with a heart of gold.

    Please, just for this week, try and do 1 thing for me, for I would love to be your Spark buddy

    Just visualize what you think you would like to look like and set a goal to tell yourself how simply lovely you are

    Can you do that for me? I will be checking in each week we will work on one thing at a time and before you know you will look smashing

    Your friend
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    3206 days ago
    oh right with you been on so many diets lost and gain but trying harder this time. and its not a diet its a life change. my moto is take it one day at a time. hang in you will get there
    3206 days ago
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