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I'm Confessin to Morticia

Saturday, June 12, 2010

Ever since I got back from Missoula MT, I have been eating weird things…things that I haven’t eaten in years and things that I never craved before. Maybe it was seeing family I haven’t seen in twenty years. Maybe it was just the fact that I went for my uncle’s memorial and it hit me that all of my dad’s siblings are now gone.

I let myself get too hungry on Thursday and I had a chocolate attack at Walmart. This was after I taught my Zumba class. I went to Walmart to get the Kashi bars that they have been out of for a week. Still out. I started craving ice cream bars. Had to be dark chocolate. I found myself looking at the boxes, trying to find the lowest calorie, highest protein REAL food…no artificial sweeteners or any of that junk. I bought Eskimo Pies, Choco’s Bon Bons (only 60 calories!) and Hershey’s Bliss dark chocolate minis. Then I bought some string cheese because I felt like I needed protein.…lol. And I knew I could eat that in the car….after the first Eskimo Pie. Yes, I said first. I’d have to wait for the Bon Bons until I got home. They were starting to melt and would be too messy. I was in one of those moods and I couldn’t talk myself out of it. I’m not sure I even tried. It was going to happen and that was that.

I went down the cereal aisle, and the Whole Grain Cocoa Puffs caught my eye. I used to eat Cocoa Puffs for breakfast just about every morning when I was a kid. But they weren’t whole grain back then. I put them in the basket too. I wonder how long it will be before I get into that box…lol. Those I will keep onhand for an emergency...lol.

When I got home from Walmart, I ate six Bon Bons, another Eskimo Pie and one mini Hershey’s Bliss…dark chocolate…over the course of about an hour. That was what I would call an eating day. Sheesh. Just when I got close to 150 I had a chocolate attack. I just want to get below 150…149 would be nice for a while. Why am I resisting?

Thanks, Morticia. You are such a good listener!!!

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  • VISUALLYRICS
    Oh WOW!.....LOL!!! MORTICIAADDAMS is right.....you are both too funny! I really enjoyed your blog!

    I too indulge in a lo-cal precise amount of dark chocolate daily...LOL!! ....have for years! ....sitting down is a must though....it must be planned....LOL!.....no guilt. =)


    (((hugs))) to you, my beautiful freind! ~ Laura
    3641 days ago
  • MORTICIAADDAMS
    ROFLMBO!! Girlfriend, you went freakin nuts. LOL.

    I was sitting here drooling. I have so been there before. It's a shame I live so far away. I could have helped you sample some of that stuff. You eat half. I eat the other half. LOL.

    I would say this is a result of a spot of depression regarding the loss of family because you were obviously medicating yourself with chocolate. LOL.Chocolate is good medicine. At least it has some nutritional value.

    As you know I have a legal serving of lower carb dark chocolate every day. I need it to stay sane. I make it part of my plan and I don't let anyone talk me out of it. It would be dangerous for them to try. LOL.

    Of course you know what you did wrong. No more eating stuff this good in the car. LOL. If you are going to do it then you are required to sit down and look, feel, smell, and savor every tiny bite. Mindful eating!!!!

    Good grief. Cocoa Puffs. Now you've really went off the deep end. LOL.

    Girl, what you really need is some comfort, not comfort food. A big hug. I wish I were there to give it to you. emoticon
    3641 days ago
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