I'm Confessin to Morticia
Saturday, June 12, 2010
Ever since I got back from Missoula MT, I have been eating weird things…things that I haven’t eaten in years and things that I never craved before. Maybe it was seeing family I haven’t seen in twenty years. Maybe it was just the fact that I went for my uncle’s memorial and it hit me that all of my dad’s siblings are now gone.
I let myself get too hungry on Thursday and I had a chocolate attack at Walmart. This was after I taught my Zumba class. I went to Walmart to get the Kashi bars that they have been out of for a week. Still out. I started craving ice cream bars. Had to be dark chocolate. I found myself looking at the boxes, trying to find the lowest calorie, highest protein REAL food…no artificial sweeteners or any of that junk. I bought Eskimo Pies, Choco’s Bon Bons (only 60 calories!) and Hershey’s Bliss dark chocolate minis. Then I bought some string cheese because I felt like I needed protein.…lol. And I knew I could eat that in the car….after the first Eskimo Pie. Yes, I said first. I’d have to wait for the Bon Bons until I got home. They were starting to melt and would be too messy. I was in one of those moods and I couldn’t talk myself out of it. I’m not sure I even tried. It was going to happen and that was that.
I went down the cereal aisle, and the Whole Grain Cocoa Puffs caught my eye. I used to eat Cocoa Puffs for breakfast just about every morning when I was a kid. But they weren’t whole grain back then. I put them in the basket too. I wonder how long it will be before I get into that box…lol. Those I will keep onhand for an emergency...lol.
When I got home from Walmart, I ate six Bon Bons, another Eskimo Pie and one mini Hershey’s Bliss…dark chocolate…over the course of about an hour. That was what I would call an eating day. Sheesh. Just when I got close to 150 I had a chocolate attack. I just want to get below 150…149 would be nice for a while. Why am I resisting?
Thanks, Morticia. You are such a good listener!!!