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Thursday, June 10, 2010

Ok...so I should be happy that for the last 4 weeks I haven't gained...I AM VERY HAPPY about that. However, I am stressed out and feel like I can't do anything right in my life.

Like:
1. Why can't I eat right and exercise ALL the time, when I know it is what I NEED to do and I feel better and my blood sugars are where they need to be when I do? (DUH!!!)

2. Why can't my kids do what they're supposed to do? Not sneak around and make bad choices. I know kids will be kids, but I feel like I have done something wrong and I can't figure out what it is.

3. Someitmes I feel so lonely. I have been married for almost 11 years, but honestly, I can't remember the last time I was truly happy,
So, I know that plays into my stress and not eating right.

I have got to change my thinking and remember that I am worth being healthy and happy. I deserve it. I know it, but why do I beat myself up so much????
I feel like this is the only place I can let my feelilngs out.
I can talk to my mom, but she is going through cancer treatment and I don't want to stress her out. My husband won't talk that much...my daughter and I are at battle constantly b/c I set boundaries and hold her accountable. I just do not know what to do.

Thanks so much for letting me vent...I just need prayers and lots of them...

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  • EVER-HOPEFUL
    1st emoticon on not gaining the last 4 weeks.how old is your daughter?sounds to me like she is at the age where she thinks she is a grown up and should be given orderes etc.maybe try giving it as advice following the advice up with examples etc. when that fails then you just have to play the mother says roll.i am having problems with my 7 year old who thinks he is old enough to decide everything himself.heaven help me when he does reach teenzhood if he is like this now.chin up you are not on your own there.re not being truly happy that is down to you and your happiness.we should bepend on others for our feelings.maybe treat yourself to a nice candle light scented bath,facial,massage etc anything just for you to relax.or have a facial make up night for you and your daughter together. try and put some spice in your life,a candle light dinner with walk in the moonlight for you and your husband ,or a movie night together,moonlight pic nick.massage night where you take turns to massage one another.something that you both like doing and use to do together when you where dating or first married.just thing over,what you like and do it.it is your life and you can direct it how you want to go.hope this helps.but just know you are not on your own,you are also not the first to feel this way and you wont be the last.we shouldn´t just wait and see what life has to offer ius we should ask what have we to offer ourself.remember you are worth it.what ever you decide to do or treat yourself to,wheatzher it is quiet time to yourself,a book or magazine to read,exercise,listening to music,day dreaming etc.you are worth it.you can do this,i a can do this,we can do this
    3981 days ago
  • MNABOY
    In my opinion, parenting is the toughest job around. When we had our first child for about 5 days I was busy with masks for visitors, watching her closely, monitoring her sleep.... Then the brain opened and I asked the Lord to take care of my child and lead me to do what was right. Life became easier to enjoy. You are working through a lot of challenges, remember the footsteps in the sand- two sets go to one set. Our Lord will comfort us.
    3983 days ago
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