Because...He's not the only man worth having!
In fact, here is what I have concluded. (Wait, you are going to be really surprised at this little revelation.) I should actually thank him in some ways. True, the ending was crap...especially the email. We can all agree on that, right? BUT...Art Guy raised the bar. No other loser type will ever do. In fact, no other guy without manners will do. So he bailed. Oh well. The search continues for the one that WILL talk to me for hours, make me smarter in some ways while thinking I am already intelligent, share their world, think I am beautiful, open doors, listen when I have something to say (and remember it), and walk on the street side of the sidewalk...not to mention make me lose my breath momentarily when I think of him. And the bonus will be that my true Mr. Wonderful won't run away from me. Those feelings don't come with everyone, but now that I have had it all, I am certainly not settling for less! So thank you Art Guy, for showing me what is possible and what I deserve. I didn't even cry today when I turned on the radio and that same crap song was already on. ;) And why? Because he may have been a remarkable experience, but he's not the only guy worth having.
Now, on to what really made me feel good today: Retail Therapy. Hello store coupon...Hello new clothes. =) Okay, so it wasn't much. And I also went beyond that one store. LOL I bought a cute slimming black top (because how can I look fabulous with nothing much to wear), a pair of dressier bermudas that came with a studded belt that I actually found in the Junior Dept. (benefit of having little hips and being petite), a pair of sunglasses, some new makeup (really if you have not tried Sally Hansens Luminizing Face Primer, you need to), and of course the ever needed staple for summer--a black tank. Oh yeah, and new underwear...because cute new underwear always make you feel good, even if you are the only one that knows that you have them on. lol Then of course there was the usuals...moisturizer and sunscreen, because I do not stay this fair and skin cancer free without some help out here in Cali.
Of course, there was a ton of trying on. Here is what I discovered. I lost my butt. I worked hard to get it, and it just went away without as much work on the StairMaster. So that will be my new mission after I move. Okay, so its not awful, but it certainly is not as cute as it was. Thank goodness I love skirts. lol
So I guess I am in survival mood. Still raw, but not going to stop living or give up. I still think the worst part was losing the friendship, but it wasn't my decision, so its not like I get to choose any part of this. But it is getting a little easier. ;)
Okay off to pack up some more stuff. I have 9 bags of clothes to give to the Salvation Army, if you can believe that. So much more crap to get rid of still. All of my skinny clothes fit into half a laundry bag. Hmmm, maybe that is because they are smaller. LOL Just kidding...I just had a huge wardrobe of so many sizes before. Now everything 8 and Up is gone. I got to say, that is really really weird. But goodbye...because I do not want to fit in you again! ;)
TTFN my friends!