Tuesday, June 08, 2010
Time sure does...go by fast...out run us...is gone in the blink of an eye...and sure does fly by! I am not as loyal as I would have, could have, should have been to the Spark friends I like to follow and read about, or to my weight loss, improved health, journey. I am not getting to know 'Sparkers' as well I would like. I am staying isolated and watching instead of getting involved.
Shame on me. I am doing some self analysis here and want to understand why I go through the changes and fluctuations in my routines, , commitments and such. I am, of course, a emotional human being but I know that there are people who can maintain self control and manage their time and follow through better than I am and I just want be better at it. I don't want to be a quitter! I want to get to build relationships and get honest, encouraging feed back and support. I want to be consistent with my physical health needs, my emotional control, decision making and follow through.
I think that if I kinda stay on the outside rim and just watch, listen, read but not jump in that I can back out anytime. And I did just that. Lost contact for about 8 whole weeks! What a slacker I am!
Well, I am going to try again and proceed moving forward and take little steps. Again. This is one of the hardest or maybe the hardest thing I have had to do in my lifetime....weight control and exercise. Well, I need to loose weight first, then controlling the weight lose comes next. One hip hip hooray for me is that I am exercising three times a week; I joined a gym. My neighbor invited me and I joined. I know she was an answer to a prayer because I didn't have the get up and go to join on my own. This is my 5th week and I am really enjoying it...I feel stronger and my endurance is better. I am now going to get back to eating better and being better to myself. Welcome Back!