Accepting ones self.

Monday, June 07, 2010

Each day is a learning experience. To face ones own weight problem..never really considered my self fat or obese just a little heavy. Never thought of my self pretty or that one day I would be married. I did find the cause of it..brothers teasing me, saying I was fat..ugly..no one would want to go out with you. So what did I do..eat. With my cancer did some soul searching and journeys of the mind found pictures of me when I was in 9th grade.. and really I wasn't ugly or fat. I was taller then my girlfriends and did remember "developing" before them. I did take to heart what people said even though I acted like I didn't. this site has help me a lot. Like today for example this week I did not loose any weight, it is frustrating and I really wanted to drink or eat something sweet... ahh milk shake it is hot today. I went in and ordered a large unsweetened ice tea instead. 1 year ago I would have order the milk shake drank it then feel upset that I did that.
Today I put on the site my true starting weight..why? I am comfortable in my own skin now. 2004 I weight 270 pounds and I said to myself..no way. Did South Beach Diet lost 20 pounds and then found out I had cancer of the appendix. I was 254 in 2005 with the operations 2 of them I lost 30 pounds in 6 months.. Looked like death warmed over to my self. No appetite for a long while.It came back..oh boy did it. Back up to 250...feel better but that is to much. Along with the cancer they found out I had a silent heart attack and a bundle branch block..eventually I will need a pacemaker put in and maybe a new heart valve.
So my mind is set to loose some weight but still look healthily not skin n bone..lol
That is why I say each day is a gift from God.

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    each day is definately a gift....
    He is so amazing ...and we are truly blessed to have Him love us !!He takes care of us and works everything out
    God will work it out in his own time ...
    thanks for sharing with us...

    oh yeah ..good job on choosin the unsweetened tea over the milkshake .. emoticon
    3786 days ago
  • FLUTTER934
    You must be a truly committed person to have come so far. It can not have been easy. I am glad to hear your thankfulness to the gift of each new day. Do not ever lose that attitude.

    Your friend,
    3787 days ago
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