Friday, June 04, 2010
A year ago, something incredible happened. I was helping a friend move, and I saw her scale on the floor, so I stood on it.
It rolled all the way back to zero.
I was horrified.
I never really thought I was that big. I was a size 24, but I could sit in a movie theater without overflowing in to the seats next to me. I didn't need a seat belt extender. I didn't have to buy two plane tickets. I always just thought "Oh, it could be worse" and never gave it a second thought.
I've also never really had a problem with confidence or self-esteem. I love wearing bright, eccentric things that draw attention to myself and my body. I'd just accepted that I was fat. I was fat, but I still loved myself, and I didn't care who knew it.
However, it's quite another thing to see a scale roll all the way around to zero while I'm standing on it. I knew I had to do something.
It has been one year since I made the decision to become healthy. I'd seen commercials for the Special K Challenge, and when I went to the supermarket, stocked up on healthy foods, cleaned out my fridge, cut back on beer and started drinking more water. In that first two weeks, I lost six pounds.
I believe it was that third week when I worked out for the very first time. I used SparkPeople's strength-training workout creator, and did my first sets of crunches and pushups. I thought I was going to throw up. I felt like hell and I remember thinking "This is why I've never worked out" followed by "This will get easier. Just keep doing it and it will get easier." And it did!
This past year has been fantastic. I've learned a lot about myself, my health, my body, and my life. I've learned that healthy eating doesn't have to taste bad or be unsatisfying. I've learned that exercise doesn't have to be painful or boring. I've learned that pain is weakness leaving my body. And while sweat is still gross, I know that I've done something to earn it. Something good for me.
I never thought I would actually enjoy living a healthy lifestyle. I never thought I'd enjoy foods like hummus or yogurt or vegetables. I never ever thought I'd enjoy running. I never knew losing weight could be so easy, or that I could actually do it.
Of course, it hasn't all been easy. I got really frustrated last fall when I had to stop swimming, and ultimately, stopped losing. In February, six weeks into the Couch to 5k Program, my hip started giving me trouble, and I had to stop. I put healthy eating on the back burner, started drinking more and eating more and before I knew it, I'd gained back 20 pounds. After that, it was a struggle for me to start eating right again.
At my lightest, I was 223. Today, one year later, I am 248 and actively working to get back to the 220s. Because of my hip thing, I've had to put off running for now, but I've been swimming for an hour each day. It feels really good to be back on the wagon, and seeing success on the scale; just this week, I've lost a pound and a half.
It feels great to be back! Here's to another year!