So, I still have 30+ pounds to lose. But having lost 100, you can bet my life has changed.
My confidence has soared, of course. And not just because of the weight loss, but because I worked a lot on fixing my broken emotional self. Still, I have not settled into this "new" body. (And I don't know if I want to since I have more to lose?)
I worked at a festival booth for a fitness boot camp this weekend, and I was hit on a few times. It feels strange. I wonder how they see me. Because when I look in the mirror, I think I still see a bigger version of me. When I see pictures of myself, I still can't believe it.
I read that the average American woman is 5'3", weighs 164.7 pounds, has a 37 inch waist, and wears a size 14.* I am 5'4", I weigh 163-165 pounds (depending on the time of day), have about a 30 inch waist, and wear a size 12. Though I just bought a size 10 pair of jeans that I comfortably fit into. (This fact is STILL blowing my mind considering I used to be a 26 and hovered around an 18 for a looong time. I mean, WTF! FTW! Haha. I keep checking the size tag to make sure I'm not making it up. I'm not.)
I mean, I am much kinder to myself these days. I acknowledge my victories. But I still see a whoooole lot of work to be done when I look at my nude self in the mirror. My clothing covers up the excess fat and excess skin (which is bothering me more and more).
It's not any better that I've plateaued and stayed around the same weight for 3 months or so :-/
And if I want to reach my goal by the end of this year... 125-130... I reeally, really need to get the ball rolling. I want hot, hard body, dammit!
I'm going home to visit the fam for a few weeks this summer. Also worried about that because I'll fall out of my routine. Plus, they ALWAYS have an unlimited supply of junk food in the house. It's really going to test my will-power.
Ahh, I don't even know where this is going. I'm not depressed, not ecstatic either. I work better in the extremes. Not that I want to be depressed, but once I hit rock bottom, it seems to motivate me. As does reaching my heights and feeling unstoppable. I feel like I'm in a lull. I know I'm the only person who can get me out of it, though.
Writing helps me realize this.
Any tips for stepping up my game? I take hip-hop classes a 2 days per week, walk/jog at least 10 miles per week, strength train 2-4 days per week, and take other cardio classes as well 1 or 2 times per week. I've also been doing pilates, though I kind of switch off between pilates and strength training since they both work my muscles pretty hard.
Any fun activities you'd recommend? It seems like I'm so good at recommending new exercises for people who ask me for ideas, but when I need to find some myself I get stuck, haha. Such is life. It's easy to dish out advice, difficult to save some for yourself.
How about nutrition? Any fantastic healthy recipes you've found lately? (Especially those involving vegetables?) I find I get bored with eating the same foods over and over. Basically, I need to shake things up a bit.
Rawr! I know I'll feel better. I have to go workout now. Gotta kick my butt into gear ASAP.
Much love & bunny kisses,