On my list from yesterday, let's see how I'm doing so far:
All I know is that I have a plan of action:
1. Talk to DH about my theory re: self-sabotage.
2. Do ST tonight at home so that I don't feel like I didn't do anything physical today. **** I actually did a couple sets crunches and pushups at work***
3. Finish my mission to get the house in order (items other than a to be completed over time - ok actually tomorrow I want b and c to happen as well)--
a. Clean the bathroom tomorrow morning. ***NOT YET***
b. Pack away cold-weather/toowarm clothing ***Put a few things aside***
c. Create a space for sweaty workout clothes to air out - specifically!
d. Pack the kitchen items that will not be used before we leave.
e. Pack other items that will go into storage while we're w/ the in-laws
4. GO RUN TOMORROW!
5. Make a grocery list tonight/tomorrow to be completed shopping on Thursday. Goal - use up pantry items as much as possible between now and when we leave.
So.... I still have:
1. Grocery list tonight shop tomorrow!
2. RUN TOMORROW! :)
3. Clean the bathroom
4. Pack away clothes I won't wear between now and moving day
3. Pack the kitchen items not used between now and moving day
5. Pack stuff that's not coming on the move with us
See what I did there? I accomplished running today but I gotta run tomorrow so it stays. HAHA :D I also prioritized my list by how soon I want things done between now and moving day.
Tomorrow I WILL wake up EARLY to beat the heat for running! I will get my run done EARLY at the arboretum and then go grocery shopping like on one of my favorite days last week. :) Then before I shower I will clean the bathroom. Tomorrow's my last day of work this week and then my sister will be here visiting - HURRAH! I definitely don't want to have chores to do while she's here so that will help motivate me to get everything done tomorrow.
Talked to the DH last night. It felt good to tell him about how I was feeling. I think getting things accomplished around the house has really helped me to feel like I'm Getting Things Done, if you know what I mean. Yes, capitalized. You know that feeling! ACCOMPLISHMENT! SUCCESS! :D hahaha. My failure ANTI-drug! :) He seemed game to go w/ me to the park sometime at night, but he brought up how fun it'd be if we had a dog and I could run a lap w/ the dog and then drop the dog w/ DH for a rest break and then take him w/ me again, etc. And we got sidetracked and just looked at pictures of doggies for adoption and videos of cute puppies for like an hour. HAHAHA. *sigh* sad.
I did NOT do any ST at home last night - BUT! I suspected I might not and to help pass some time at work I did some crunches and girl pushups. I HATE doing girl pushups now. I hate my knees on the ground. I'd much prefer do an angled pushup full length or use my Freestyle Trainer for some deep chest presses or something. It feels so much more effective for the muscles I want to hit without being a pain for other areas (like my wrists and knees). But I did it. Stacking up achievement of small goals to create that upward spiral like it talks about in The Spark! :)
I also ran today - not the 4 miles on my training plan but ..... it was MISERABLE. Absolutely the worst run I've had in a while. My hip/butt was not happy w/ me for sitting all day at work the day before. It was feeling SO GOOD after a weekend of not having to sit here at work. :P I can't wait till this is not part of my daily routine anymore. I need to make sure I get up and move around and stretch throughout the day so that doesn't happen. Plus the heat and humidity were just SMOTHERING me. Tomorrow's run WILL be better.
Thanks for all the great comments on my blog yesterday.
I can do this.
I will trust myself.
I will be good to myself.
I will learn to love myself and realize I deserve both love AND being fit and healthy.
I don't have to be broken to be loved.