June not off to a great start
Tuesday, June 01, 2010
So I got back from my awesome vacation only up a few lbs (which I expected & am OK w/ bc I was planning on getting right back on track) then factor in a few picnics and TOM pending so I am feeling very carby & gross.
I was very PUMPED about my new June Challenge on Buddy System team but I feel like I let them down today. All was going well until about 630p. I was in the car on the way to the gym and got a VM from my mom reminding me to call my g-father (it's his 89th bday!!) So I called and he told me I should come after the gym....which I quickly factored in that by the time I left the gym, got down there and got home it would've been too late to get anything done. So I rationalized family first and decided to see him. Not that I regret going to see him; I know it made him happy...I just wish I would've gone after the gym. I ended up getting home late anyway. I went to my parents' first to grab dinner (since I only had a snack pre-gym) and just go w/ them...but I would've prob been better off stopping for a healthy sandwich or salad. My parent's house is a trouble zone for me. Dinner was angel hair pasta & mushrooms (no protein!) and then I decided to graze on some cookies and choc (used TOM excuse) but this is what happens when I go there. It's like my self control goes out the window. So now did I not only NOT work out now I'm eating crap. AWESOME. On one hand I am mad bc I let myself & my team down and on the other hand I don't want to be negative bc I am sure tmrw will be a better day...so I will choose to be positive!
Where is the line between staying positive and promising to do better tmrw and just using the "I will do better tmrw excuse"??...day after day. Bc I feel like I use that one way too often!! When will I ever want this bad enough??