Tuesday, June 01, 2010
I wonder at what point my clutter turned into hoarding.
Did I lose my impulse control? Did I ever really have it?
My intellect tells me managing hoarding is like getting healthy. If I work on it each day of my life, it becomes natural to manage.
When I think of every day for the rest of my life. I get overwhelmed. I panic. I get frustrated or angry. I want to make excuses. I want to be perfect at it and know I am doomed to fail the perfection goal. My excuse is if I am going to fail or be disappointed - why should I start?
My answer to myself is it is obvious that giving in to my pain, anxiety, or other emotions isn't working for me.
If I take no steps, I won't get anywhere.
In my heart of hearts, I would rather be somewhere than nowhere. There is already a bridge to nowhere. I don't want to make a path there.
That means I have to take one step. My feelings say, "WAIT!!! Procrastinate!!!" My brain says, "Feelings are fine unless they control you - Take one step!"
Feelings versus The Brain... The Brain WINS!!!!!
Today is a good day to start on this journey to a happier life.