Where is the reset button?
Saturday, May 29, 2010
I'm really struggling right now. My entries lately have been so negative on everything and I'm hating it. Things are realllllly good right now, I'm just feeling sooo lost regarding weight loss and generally being healthly.
I've been struggling since our 4th roommate moved in. No space or alone time to exercise. Now that Kara is working when I'm off of work has made me sooo lazy. Or so I feel. I come home and clean, do laundry, cook, whatever. But I can't exercise and it was really bothering me.
This past week, I decided I needed a change. I actually walked into a gym with my "i'm effing awesome" face on and signed up for a membership. I never realized before how utterly overwhelming the gym really is. I mean, there are machines, free weights, tons of cardio equipment, a pool, classes, raquetball, blahblahblah. I went in not knowing where to go first. It was so overwhelming that I only went once last week after signing up on Tuesday. I felt totally unprepared so I came home and started rifling through Spark looking for help. I'm trying to go into next week with a game plan. I have an extended weekend to get ready so no excuses right?
I found some cardio intervals to do and I'm going to use the spark generated strength training routines. I've reallllly wanted to try a spinning class. There is always one while I am there but I'm sooooo nervous. What if I cant do it? I don't want to leave the class early. Ugh, yikes.
I feel like I've been off the spark wagon for so long, I desperately want to press the reset button. I wish I could kind of start this whole thing over again. I feel like my current spark is tainted and I need a fresh start. So much so I kind of start panicking trying to re navigate myself through the beginning stages.
Other than all of the weight loss stuff, life is good.
oh and I looooooove the sauna. It feel amazingggggggg.
Now to balance myself out and get this ball rolling again.