Wednesday, May 26, 2010
Switching gears, I recently received a comment on my page from another member, MOMFAN. She was congratulating me on reaching the halfway point to my weight loss goal and asking what my plans were for celebration of that milestone.
I was rather shocked by that observation and realized that while I could clearly see my tracker, I hadn't realized that I had gone half way to my goal, so hadn't planned anything.
I began thinking about why that was and I came up with a few ideas.
The most obvious to me, is that the goal that I have set on my ticker is actually an interim goal. When I started back on SparkPeople in earnest (last November), I had decided that if I started by posting my actual goal, it would take too long for me to see progress and that might be discouraging. So, I guess that my ultimate goal is still in my mind and so I know that I'm not anywhere near my "real" halfway point, so I don't feel entitled to celebrate. Of course, there's no law that I have to wait for the halfway point to reward myself, either!
The downside of posting the interim goal is that now that it's actually achievable, once it is reached, I'll be starting all over. That wouldn't be so bad, but I'm thinking about changing the goal number, so that it reflects what I'm really aiming for.
It would also be another unequivocal statement of my commitment to going all the way.
After thinking about that, I decided that was not the whole answer. This points out a pattern that is really longstanding in my life and that is not giving myself full credit for my accomplishments. I have a tendency to discount things that I do as "nothing special" or "just the way it's supposed to be" or "It's what I should have been doing all along.".
I've confronted this and very similar issues in various guises, in many areas of my life, at different times and I have made progress; but here it is again! It's always surprising, but needn't be.
As I've said to other people (and to myself) on numerous occasions, there are some lessons that one has to learn again and again. When there is an old pattern to unlearn anywhere in one's life, it exists in many layers and in lots of places. The new pattern needs to be laid down in just as many layers and places in order to replace it.
So, here's another place for me to confront this pattern!
Watch my ticker for more news, soon.
Where does this show itself in your life? What lesson(s) do you need to learn over and over?