Confessions of a backslider
Wednesday, May 26, 2010
“Live your daily life in a way that you never lose yourself. When you are carried away with your worries, fears, cravings, anger, and desire, you run away from yourself and you lose yourself. The practice is always to go back to oneself.”
Thich Nhat Hanh
I can honestly tell you that is not what I have been doing over the past couple months. I have not been true to me. Oh I've been playing the game again, trying to fit the mold, be the good wife, the dutiful daughter, the mom that over compensates, the worker trying to win her new supervisors over. But I forgot I can't please anyone if I lose touch with me, my thoughts, my needs, my devotions to my God, the care for my body. Its so easy to get lost in daily life and all the struggles we face (and I've got some big pitfalls) but that should not be the reason we give up on ourselves. In fact that should be the reason we dig in and say I truly have value and I need to take care of me so I can have more in my heart for my family and friends. Foolishly I lost site and have to take note of my situation and pick myself up dust myself off and try harder tomorrow, heck with that right now.
Luckily I have stuck to my food plan. Now I just need to get back on the exercise. I am going to map out my plan and stop by my yoga studio tomorrow and get going with life. Time to step back into it and stop hiding away from the pain.
May your evening be blessed. Forgive me for my absence.