Time for Honesty
Monday, May 24, 2010
You may or may not have noticed that I have once again made myself scarce around here. You probably could have found me in a corner feeling sorry for myself, hiding from the realities of my life and hoping if I just hid long enough everything would work itself out. If only right?!?!
I do not like to be a negative person, so i hid to save you all from hearing my whining. Sure I could have lied and said that everything was wonderful, I was eating great, working out and not letting the reality of life drag me down. I chose to hide but In doing so only realized that neither of those choices were doing me any good. Thankfully some great people on here and in my life away from here have listened and been there with nothing but love and encouragement. If I have learned anything lately it is that being here with all of you who are struggling or have struggled with weight loss issues is something I really need. I need to surround myself with people who get it. If anyone knows what it is like to be the fat girl (or guy) it is all of you. I had myself convinced I could do this on my own, that i could push myself , that I could be the rock that everyone else needed. Nothing is farther from the truth,
This is me, A fat girl struggling to get it right. I am struggling to balance my life with the changes I so desperately need to make. I am struggling to balance the stresses of life and not allowing those things to sabotage me. I am struggling to realize it is okay to fall on my face and it is okay to allow those around me to help pick me up and dust me off. If I am being totally honest I have been eating like CRAP and sitting on my butt. I have gained another 4 pounds over the last few weeks. And I have been sitting around wallowing in my failures instead of using those as building blocks.
Failure is a part of success, and the sooner I fully embrace that fact the better off I will be.
I am thankful for finding this website and for the friends I have made on here and I am sure will continue to make. I look forward to those friendships growing and helping each other push onward towards healthier and happier lives.
Thank you to each and everyone of you who have encouraged me and continue to do so. I am thankful and blessed.