Day One of a New Chapter
Monday, May 17, 2010
I feel like I'm constantly playing the waiting game. I feel like I've been in school forever (because I pretty much have). I feel like I've been waiting to finally live with my husband (we've been living an hour and a half apart for our first year of marriage). I'm rarely satisfied with the here and now; there always seems to be something I'm looking forward to instead. It's like, "Oh, I just gotta wait until THIS happens, and then everything will be great."
Well, today was the first day of the next chapter of my life, one I've really been looking forward to. I had my last final exam on Thursday, so now I'm (technically) on summer break. But I have to take the USMLE Step 1 (the test you take after your second year of medical school, one which is really important in determining whether you'll get the residency you want) in June, so today I started studying for that.
So I am trying to be happy in this new chapter. It's nice because it gives my life structure while allowing me some personal time. I get up at 6, work out, shower, then study at the school from 8-12, take my lunch break and do any errands I can during that time, then study from 1-5, then work out again (I've joined the twice a day workout club, which I'll blog about later). Then I come home and do what I want. Pretty cool.
But I've already found myself saying, "Everything will be great after I take my test and I have some REAL time off." But I know that I won't really have "time off" then either, because we'll be traveling to see our families. So during that time, I'll be thinking, "Everything will be great once we move in together." But I also realize that once that happens, I'll be super busy again at the hospital every day. So then it'll be, "Things will be great when I'm in my fourth year," which, even though it's supposed to be the "cake walk" year, will undoubtedly be stressful as I'll be interviewing for residencies. You can see where this is going.
So back to what I was saying, I'm trying to enjoy the here and now. Sure, I have to study, but when else have I had the time to work out twice a day? When else have I had such a structured schedule? And I know I'll sound really anal when I say this, but I LOVE structure. It really helps keep my eating on track, which is awesome. I'm not sure why else I love it, but man, I do. So I'm going to focus on how awesome my current situation is. This was day one of the new chapter in my life, and I am pumped for every day of the next four weeks!