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I WILL NOT LET MYSELF QUIT!!!!

Sunday, May 16, 2010

Here goes another stream of consciousness again...

The last 3 days I really "crapped the bed" so to speak - sorry to be coarse but I am really pissed at myself. Thursday, Friday and Saturday I ate TERRIBLY and drank too much wine over the course of 3 days (social visits, Bunco + a college Graduation celebration) and this morning's run was a manifestation of that. I was supposed to complete Day 3 of Week 6 of Couch to 5K and do a 25 minute run...after 10 minutes I was gasping for air and had to stop. Then I ran for another 15 minutes and had to stop again and then I made myself run another 10 minutes to make up for the time that I had to walk. Now, last week, I ran for 20 minutes straight so I am REALLY mad because I KNOW I can do this but something in my head made me stop. What was it? I am still trying to figure that out. I'll let you all know if I come up with the answer on my next run.

Because that is exactly what I am going to do. In a few minutes I am going out and am going to try it again. My strategy...run slower and run for 12.5 minutes and then turn around and go back the way I came for another 12.5 minutes. I am drained and tired and a bit shaky but I know I can do this. The folks on the Biggest Loser workout WAY more than me and they are FAR bigger and weigh more than me so I KNOW KNOW KNOW K-N-O-W I can do this.

This is the first real setback I have had in my weightloss journey (I calculate my weekly caloric differentials and have ALWAYS had a deficit...this week I had an overage - more self loathing) so I have to give myself credit for that. I have lost 27 pounds relatively easily so I guess now is the time to really dig deep and force myself out of my comfort zone.

Here I go - I'll post another blog later tonight to let you know how I did. Wish me luck!!
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  • EMERALDGIRL0
    You CAN do it....I have to keep telling myself that....it's not the minor setbacks that define us but our overall progress....you've come a long way in a month to be able to run. You WILL get it back ....let us know how it went. Headed to the gym myself :)
    3907 days ago
  • TINKMCD
    Whatever happened on that second run, *please* consider being as kind to yourself as you would be to any one of us who had a setback like this.

    I've seen you been incredibly supportive to teammates and SparkFriends. Suppose one of them were beating herself up about a few days of over-indulging followed by one bad run? I'll bet you'd be the first to remind her that a bit of backsliding does *not* negate all these weeks of effort and success! And it *certainly* isn't an occasion for self-loathing.

    You've done a marvelous job so far. Lapses are virtually inevitable in any change process. What's important is to catch ourselves before the lapse goes too far.

    As for having to stop and walk after your first 10 minute of running, that might have been the *wisest* possible thing you could do, given that you were gasping for air. Maybe there's something going on in your body (other than the extra eating and drinking over the past few days) that was reducing your stamina temporarily--for instance, your immune system might be busy fighting off a bug. Or maybe it's just a reflection of fatigue after a what sounds like a heavily social stretch in your life.

    All of which is to suggest that listening to your body's strong signals that it needs to slow down isn't necessarily a sign of weakness.

    Worst case, you could repeat Week 5 of the Couch to 5K program. I've seen others do that and go on to reach their goals successfully.

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    3907 days ago
  • BOOPSTER69
    Be gentle - this is a journey not a destination! We sometimes get side tracked by other sights along the way but, as long as we get back on the ultimate trail - the victory awaits! emoticon on the journey so far and I absolutely know emoticon ! Stay the course emoticon
    3908 days ago
  • LYNNES6
    27 pounds?! emoticon Please don't let the last 3 days define your 8 Week Battle. You have to fight many battles in order to win the war. Hang in there. emoticon your track record proves it.

    Lynne
    3908 days ago
  • LORNJOHN
    Good luck with your run but it sounds like you're being way too hard on yourself. I think your weight loss so far is emoticon and even though you've had 3 days of over indulging you've picked yourself up and got back on track.

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    3908 days ago
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