I WILL NOT LET MYSELF QUIT!!!!
Sunday, May 16, 2010
Here goes another stream of consciousness again...
The last 3 days I really "crapped the bed" so to speak - sorry to be coarse but I am really pissed at myself. Thursday, Friday and Saturday I ate TERRIBLY and drank too much wine over the course of 3 days (social visits, Bunco + a college Graduation celebration) and this morning's run was a manifestation of that. I was supposed to complete Day 3 of Week 6 of Couch to 5K and do a 25 minute run...after 10 minutes I was gasping for air and had to stop. Then I ran for another 15 minutes and had to stop again and then I made myself run another 10 minutes to make up for the time that I had to walk. Now, last week, I ran for 20 minutes straight so I am REALLY mad because I KNOW I can do this but something in my head made me stop. What was it? I am still trying to figure that out. I'll let you all know if I come up with the answer on my next run.
Because that is exactly what I am going to do. In a few minutes I am going out and am going to try it again. My strategy...run slower and run for 12.5 minutes and then turn around and go back the way I came for another 12.5 minutes. I am drained and tired and a bit shaky but I know I can do this. The folks on the Biggest Loser workout WAY more than me and they are FAR bigger and weigh more than me so I KNOW KNOW KNOW K-N-O-W I can do this.
This is the first real setback I have had in my weightloss journey (I calculate my weekly caloric differentials and have ALWAYS had a deficit...this week I had an overage - more self loathing) so I have to give myself credit for that. I have lost 27 pounds relatively easily so I guess now is the time to really dig deep and force myself out of my comfort zone.
Here I go - I'll post another blog later tonight to let you know how I did. Wish me luck!!