A rough week!
Thursday, May 13, 2010
I havn't written a blog for a few days. I have been kind of down and didn't want to burden anyone with it. I just can't seem to shake the funk that I have been in. I know most of it is concerning my son honestly. He is so on my mind and heart lately. I haven't talked to him in days, I think he is avoiding me so that I won't know how down he is. He doesn't like me to worry....hahaha. Too late for that. He's just a 21 year old boy trying to find his way in the world and it is overwhelming him I think. As a mother all we want to do is try to make it better and honestly I don't know how I can. But it is breaking my heart to know he is struggling. He will be home next week to get his wisdom teeth out so if nothing else I will have his attention then.
I have not let this effect my eating and working out though. I continue to eat the right foods, stay with in my calories. I may even have been low a few days. I also have been working out 2 times a day. My yoga in the morning and my cardio at night. I just haven't lost anything in weeks now. I know I tell everyone just stay with it, it will come. And I know this is true. I honestly don't know what I could change anyway. I feel great right now physically. I think it is my mental state of being that is hindering right now. I can feel the tension in my body. Hopefully I will be able to start letting some of it go and the weight will follow. My May goals was to be at 135 by the end of this month. Well I'm still hovering at 140 for the time being. I'm kind of bummed about it but not even really. I know if I keep doing what I am that it will work out on the scale and in my cloths and all. I just need to get this nagging panic worried feeling to go away. I'm going to work on that....letting things go that I can't change. We'll see what happens. Have a great day!