Crash and Burn

Tuesday, May 11, 2010

Well, I crashed and burned last night... bad. I got into the pizza rolls my son left behind. Told myself that I could have some... I had calories left and I could go off plan... I'd been good all week so I could splurge. Yeah, that was mistake #1.

Mistake #2 was misreading the serving size. For some reason I saw 15 and thought hey, that's not so bad... a couple hundred calories for 15 of them. Then I got greedy. There were 36 pizza rolls left. Hmmm, 2.33 servings. I can eat them all and still manage to be at the upper end of my calorie range!

While they were cooling off I went to enter my dinner into my tracker. That's when I realized that the actual serving size wasn't 15, it was 6. The bag contained 15 SERVINGS. ARRRGH!

Did I need to eat them all? Nope. Heck I didn't need to eat any of them. Did I eat them all? Yep.

The worst part was that when I ate the first one it didn't really taste all that great. Not like I remembered. WHY DIDN'T I JUST STOP EATING THEM AND TOSS THEM OUT RIGHT THEN???

Nooooo, not me! I think "I'll eat 3, then I'll have had 1/2 a serving.. a lil treat and then I'll just go make a huge salad." Why did I think it was a treat if I didn't really even care for the taste??

Evidently food like that numbs your tastebuds or something because it seemed to get better. It must have because I ate all fricking 36 of them lil buggers!

So, then later I'm disgusted with myself and wondering how and why that just happened. TOM arrived yesterday and I'd like to blame it on that but, in total honesty, I just didn't have the REAL cravings like I normally do.

Then I did the infamous "Well, since I already screwed up I may as well go for broke!" I proceeded to eat a bag of choc-covered mini rice cakes I bought to help with my choc craving. Only 36 calories for 2 cakes. Not bad. However, when you eat all 10 portions in the bag it adds up to Mistake #3.

I was miserable.. mentally and physically. I went to bed last night with my tummy hurting with all that food in it and I woke up several times feeling yucky all over. Like my body was trying to revolt against me for putting that crap into it.

I did have my AHA moment around 3 am tho. I realized that my body was trying to tell me something in the beginning but I just refused to listen to it. It was trying to tell me it didn't want the damn pizza rolls when it didn't taste all that great. I just didn't listen. I wanted to believe I was having a treat and damn it I was gonna have a treat!

It was my old attitude and outlook overriding my body as it tried to stick to the new eating plan that was better for it.

I ended up eating more than 2500 calories yesterday. Not quite the treat I was going for.
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    I have been there so many times. Just move on since there is no way to undo the damage. emoticon
    3986 days ago
    I think we've all had days like that. Look at it this way--you had an AHA moment about the experience. Lots of folks don't ever figure that part out. Now the next time you have a craving for a treat that might turn into a binge, you have your AHA moment to remember and help guide you back toward healthier choices.


    3988 days ago
    Pizza rolls - oh man- I've done that exact same thing- luckily the bag I got into was the small bag- so I didn't have that many- but I did eat them all- and you are correct- they weren't as good as I remembered- but I didn't stop until they were gone either!
    3992 days ago
  • VM4HIM
    I've even bought bags of chocolate candy thinking I can slowly wean myself off chocolate by having just a serving as a dessert after meals each day, but I always end up binging on the whole bag. Just stuffing the "carbporn" in my mouth even when I'm past the point of even really wanting it. Addict behavior indeed. It can be so hard at times to just say, "No!"

    The only thing that's helped so far have been the days that I've followed the Eat for Health plan.
    3992 days ago
  • VM4HIM
    I'm SO glad you shared this with us. I LOVE your honesty.


    I do the SAME thing. It's crazy. And like you said, why don't we listen when our body is telling us that the food doesn't taste that great anyways.

    Check this out. It's an article about rats on a junk food diet. The scientists say that junk food addiction is the equivalent of heroin and the rats didn't stop eating it even when they knew they would receive an electric shock to the foot!

    3992 days ago
    Here's a thought I saved a few days ago:

    "We learn from failure much more than from success; we often discover what we will do by finding our what we will not do; and probably he who never made a mistake never made a discovery."

    Samuel Smiles (1812-1904, Scottish author)

    Note the lessons and move on... you'll be back on track in no time!
    3993 days ago
    Shake it off!

    I'm finding the Fuhrman plan - for whatever weird reason - makes it easier to pick up and move on.

    You can do it!!!!
    3993 days ago
  • no profile photo CD5483846
    Take it as a lesson learned. :) Tomorrow's always a new day to start fresh. Good luck!
    3993 days ago
  • no profile photo HUSBANDANDDAD
    Stay strong - a stumble does not mean you have to fall!

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    "Do...or do not. There is no Try." - Yoda

    3993 days ago

    I don't know how to make this a link, but it will take you to a Blog I did a while back that may help explain why those pizza rolls were able to dissolve your resolve! NOW I am on high alert for that "fat, sugar, salt" combo. Exactly what you gave in to last night.

    AND REMEMBER . . . .
    'I forgive myself, and then I move on.' You can sit there forever, lamenting about how bad you've been, feeling guilty until you die, and not one tiny slice of that guilt will do anything to change a single thing in the past. - Dr. Wayne Dyer

    Happy Sparking, Vikki
    3993 days ago
    emoticon take it slow and in steps. everyone falls. it is how we get up and move on that makes us stronger. have a great day!
    3993 days ago
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