Here I am at the beginning again

Sunday, May 09, 2010

Well life takes us all full circle. And mine seems to go in circles. I am addicted to sugar, as surely as anything. I am slowly trying to weed it out of my life. Maybe this time I will find success. then again, if I just concentrate on cutting back on it today and let tomorrow take care of itself, I may be more successful.

My choloestrol levels this year have been dangerously high. I had my medications upped and it brought about vertigo so it was cut back to the ential dosage. I am working with my trainer again and am really trying to put myself on a schedule with my meals. These are the things which I feel interfere with any successes I may have.

I really have a difficult time journaling about my feelings. I can state facts, crack jokes, and write about anger and about visual beauty, anything else eludes me. I know that I eat my feelings, but can't seem to break the cycle. No wonder my life goes in circles.
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    6 pounds gone this week??? AWESOME my friend now JOURNAL a congratulations note to yourself and tell yourself how amazing you are!!!! emoticon
    2903 days ago
  • TWINKS55
    Hi Fermari!
    Well, some of go the trial and error route! LOL!
    What struck me most was when you said ". I know that I eat my feelings,". Finding a way to master these without eating them could make such success.Its frustrating when we keep that same pattern. Are there any other possible routes for you?
    I do empathize. Stress is doing similar havoc with me right now.
    Let's not give up, ok?

    2907 days ago
    It's tough. Maybe try baby steps instead of an all or none approach? That has helped me. Best wishes! You can do this!
    2907 days ago
    Fermari, I think all of us have been there. Some are successful and get it right the first time. Then there are the rest of us like you that are certainly a work in progress. The important thing is that you don't give up.

    I don't know if it would work or not but since you like sugar, what if you made it your treat for the end of the day or as a reward for doing something you set out to do for the day. I have found if I have sugar in the morning, I want it during the day all day long.

    I'm so glad you are back. I really did miss you.


    2907 days ago
    Mary ~ This is the third time I am trying to write this.......it keeps disappearing!!!! LOL!!!!
    Hugzz ~ Jae emoticon
    2907 days ago

    Comment edited on: 5/9/2010 8:22:29 AM
    Mary ~ I understand & can relate!! I have been here, but my head & heart weren't in it!!!! I am really trying this time!!!! It seems like when I try, things always interfere & sabotage me!!!! I am REALLY trying though!!!! I am SO GLAD that you are back!!!! I have missed you & your adventures!!!! LOL LOL!!!! Hang in htere.....you CAN do it!!!!
    Hugzz ~ Jae emoticon
    2907 days ago
    I know how you feel. I often feel the same. It's a vicious circle.

    I'm hopeful each time about making progress only to find that I'm at the same place I was in.
    2908 days ago
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