Thursday, May 06, 2010
“You never find yourself until you face the truth”
“Growing up is not being so dead-set on making everybody happy.” Reba
Here is a painful lesson for me. I've wanted for so long in my life to make everyone else happy. Probably because I couldn't make myself happy. I couldn't like myself no matter how hard I tried. I could not like the person I was so I set out to make every one else happy, figuring if they were happy I was a decent person. It was rather backward thinking. In the end it was destructive. My happiness depended on others, and when I couldn't get the attention I needed I reacted negatively making myself feel worse. It really was a terrible spiral.
Part of this journey has been the discovery of myself and the fact that I like me. I like who I've become and who I'm working to be. I'm grateful I have my faith to help me define myself and help me get through each day. Everyday I like the person in the mirror a bit more. Thank you for pointing out my good points and for being there for me.