my weight, my health
Thursday, May 06, 2010
Over the last five years my weight has fluctuated. After quitting smoking on my birthday in 2005 I was more than diligent in cutting calories and started doing daily workouts or cardio to keep my weight down and myself occupied. It didn't help much as I gained almost 20 extra pounds ... I was outraged as I was working out and eating less and it made no sense at all.. but I got through it.
Many times I've changed my weight tracker but it doesn't seem to change on my page..but my weight isn't my concern.. it's my health.
I am pretty strict about my calorie intake but since I work overnights running a convienience store I don't have the opportunity to eat at regular intervals during the day (or night in my case)... as I am a day person who just works at night..
My tracker reads 104 while my scale reads 112... it bothers me but I know that it's muscle.. I can see and feel it in how my clothes fit me..in the lower sizes I'm going through..
Do I feel as tho I'm sitting on a plateau that I'll never break...
sometimes I do
Mentally I want to be back down to the 104 I was back a few years ago..but I know that I wasn't healthy and I wasn't strong.. just thin
and there's a big difference between being thin and fit.
I think I'll stop getting on the scale for a while and just be happy being me..