Now THIS is what I'm talking about!
Tuesday, May 04, 2010
It's been days since I felt really motivated. I've battled low self-esteem, nighttime eating, laziness and sluggishness...you name it. Once I fall off the wagon it's tough to get back on, and lately I've felt like the wagon left me behind.
Yesterday, though, the sun was shining, both literally and metaphorically. I had a fantastic day - I even got off my behind and worked out! - and today promises to be more of the same.
I don't know what changed, though I'm pretty sure a good part of it is hormonal. Mid-cycle I tend to have more energy and a more positive outlook. But I also think I'm just fed-up. When the sun is shining and the air is fresh and light, I want to feel light right along with it. I get the urge to spring-clean my mind and body.
I'm also feeling positive about my slow progress. Any other time I would have lost considerably more weight by now. I started back on Spark People on February 21 and I've lost 9.8 pounds since then. But the thing is, by losing slowly, I know I'm more likely to keep it off. And I also know I'll have more opportunities to learn and grow if this process is slow and steady. Sure, it would be great to lose the weight quickly, but I'm cool with this.
Finally, I'm thrilled that, despite my lack of motivation, I'm still here. I'm still logging on every single day, reading blog posts, writing some of my own posts, and generally being active on SP. I'm not giving up, and now I know I WON'T give up.