Tuesday, May 04, 2010

I've been feeling pretty crappy about my body image lately. I was pretty depressed last month for various reasons and I let myself slip into bad eating habits and a lot of laying around. Now that I am feeling better and back on track I am so disappointed in myself for doing that because I am seeing and feeling the repercussions. I put on the two pounds that I lost, plus a few. I am dreading looking for a wedding dress at the end of the month, and attending friends weddings this summer.

I felt decent about myself yesterday, but when I woke up this morning and had to get dressed I picked out something 'comfortable' that I thought looked okay, but would get me by for the day of hiding in my cubicle. I woke Kyle to say goodbye and he said, "honey, I found you." I asked what the hell he was talking about, thinking he was in a sleepy stupor, and he said, "you look like Waldo." I immediately changed into a "slimming" black shirt, again, nothing that anyone would notice me in. How could he not think that would hurt my feelings? If anyone knows that I am having a rough time right now it is him. I don't want to look like a boy in a knit cap. To his defense he said, "well, Waldo is really skinny. I meant you looked cute." ARGH! I don't get it. That sweater was featured in Elle, or InStyle or some fashion magazine, it is so NOT Waldo. But I still changed.

I just want to feel good about my body. Just once.

I know a negative attitude doesn't help, but I don't know how else to feel today.
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  • NANC304
    Try to think happy, positive thoughts and see if that doesn't help change your attitude. Sorry about the Waldo comment, I'm sure he didn't mean to hurt your feelings.
    2907 days ago
    There must be something in the air! I'm feeling very negative too. I'm gonna try and not think about it and keep going. Good luck....I know it can be rough sometimes, but we have to be strong and just keep moving.
    2907 days ago
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