Monday, May 03, 2010

Update on the 5K...ran it in 31 min. Was aiming for 30 so I'm bummed but it was my 1st one and at least I can say I ran the whole thing!

I have just been in a funk lately. My work situation has been crappy for the past 4-5 months and I ended up getting transferred to another (local) building...but you know when work sucks how it effects your whole mood...that is what's happening. When I have a bad day I'm just like @#$% it and I want to relax, not go kill it at then gym....unfortunately. When I do go I have been phoning it in. I feel like it should be helping me destress but it doesn't. I keep thinking of all the things I could/should be doing instead.

Couple that with the fact that I am a schedule FREAK and the gym (since fall) has cancelled 430 classes that I used to go to straight from work. I was on a roll w/ my attendance and the classes used to push me and it was a guaranteed hr workout! Well now I still go @ 430 but I do my own thing (w/ a friend) and it's just not as motivating, but at least I'm THERE....whereas if I go home and try to make the 530 class then I don't want to go back out...I know...excuse, but I gotta do what gets me there which is 430.

I keep coming back to why am I this way? (Even in previous blogs.) And I think it's bc I am letting people talk me into complacency. Example: Everyone says I look fine the way I am and that I am NUTS for wanting to look better/not eat a brownie/work out on Thanksgiving (enter holiday here). So I say maybe they're right...and looks where it has gotten me :P Unhappy w/ myself. I just wish I could STAY CONSISTENT. That has ALWAYS been my problem. Something always happens to derail me: injury, illness, schedule changes, busy life...and then it's so hard to get back on track. That's where I am now...trying to get back on track!

I'm sorry for constantly complaining about my situation and not changing it. I REALLY WANT TO CHANGE. I am going to try to make a schedule tonight that I can STICK WITH. Any tough love or motivation is appreciated ;)
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    I agree... you did great on the run...

    As for what other people think... They don't live in your body, so they don't have a say... You do what YOU want... Do what makes YOU feel healthy and happy!
    3273 days ago
    Wow, I feel as if I have written this blog myself which I am sure if I look back at my page I have one very much like it! The thing is, you do look fine and many people would be super happy to look like you do but what is important is are YOU happy with the way you look? If so, don't stress yourself out about it so much but if not, try to put a plan in place and follow it as best you can. Consistency is KEY!! It may not happen overnight but if you are consistent with your diet and workouts then you will see change though it might take a little while. And just so you know, as I am typing this to you I am trying to make it stick in my brain as well!!!
    3273 days ago
    31 min for your first 5K is awesome. Don't think it isn't. You can strive to improve for the next one you run. I'm sure you go look great, but you'll have to keep up with the workouts and eating right so you say looking great, right? :) Making a schedule will definitely help. Once you see it in writing, you will be more likely to stick with it. Make it on a calendar so you can physically cross off each day. By the end of the month you hope to see the majority of the days if not all of them crossed off.
    You can do it. Just believe in yourself like we all do. :)
    3273 days ago
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    Wow! I would be so excited if I could run a 30 minute 5K.

    Try being more proactive. If you gym doesn't have a schedule that works for you, find one that does.

    I have a friend that has very bad arthritis and concentrates all the time on what she can't do, even though she has so much to do that che can that she never is able to get it done. It really is a matter of perspective. You can find the positives or find the negatives. It's your choice.

    3273 days ago
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