Dragging My Feet

Sunday, May 02, 2010

I have been anxious to get back to SparkPeople, because I felt like in the past it gave me a real boost to help me with eating healthier and exercising more. My first time here I lost 53 pounds, and I felt really good about it. The problem was, though, that it wasn't sustainable for me. I have since gained all that weight right back.

In some ways my life has improved drastically since then. I have focused on taking better care of myself, have become actively creative, have reconciled with my spouse. I am happier, feel more authentic, and feel like I am on the right track in a lot of ways. I am doing the things that I want with my life, and I just like myself a whole lot more.

BUT I haven't been able to get myself in a good pattern with incorporating exercise and better eating. I do yoga consistently about 3 times per week, but I've stopped walking, and stopped doing strength exercises except very sporadically. I WANT to do the exercise, I even enjoy it, but I can't seem to make it a priority or figure out how to squeeze it into my everyday life. It was almost easier when my life was more of a mess - I felt like I HAD to do the exercise - it was the only thing I could focus on and control.

My eating is a mess as well. I keep trying to eat better, but just haven't made the jump to a real commitment. I hate posting what I eat every day, because it feels so unnatural. I really want to get to a point where I can make healthy choices without writing everything down. Again, I need a system that's sustainable, and sometimes I feel like focusing so much on food makes it harder.

Part of my resistance is not wanting to fail again. I don't want to start hard and fast and have results, and then not be able to sustain it.

But I am here, and I am trying. My first step will be to buy a new scale and see how much I really weigh now. Then I need to find a way to convince myself to log my food.

Anybody have any ideas about how I can get my dragging feet to start moving again?

Carmen (TwinkleMama)

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    I'm glad you've come back to us. I'm sorry to hear that you've fallen behind in a couple of areas, but getting your life back on track is great!

    I'm 'holding' at my current weight of 170. I hope to lose more this year, but I'm having my own issues with schedule changes, travel, eating out because we're doing other stuff, etc. The weight is staying off, though, which is the most important thing.

    I hope the people here can help encourage you and give you hints on how to reintroduce exercise into your improved life.
    2942 days ago
    Well; I know what you AND I s h o u l d do-lol. I'm having the same problem you are only mine is due to starting a new job at the beginning of last month.
    I've come to the conclusion that I need scheduled routine or I am just skrooood. emoticon .
    I have to sit down and write a 'To Do List' for every day-and check 'em off when I do 'em-like work-check; dinner and clean up-check; recumbent bike-check and so on. Maybe you should too. And let's see what else? I need to find a picture of myself that I like-not one when I only weighed 117 lbs-Let's be real I will never weigh what I did in high school; nor do I want to- and put it up on the frig where It can inspire me...Maybe you should too. And one more thing that we both definitely must do: We must never leave Sparkpeople for as long as it's available to support us.
    How's that? emoticon
    2943 days ago
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