Changes everyone else sees - am I missing something?
Sunday, May 02, 2010
You never know how you look through other people's eyes.”
“Seeing is not always believing.”
Martin Luther King, Jr.
Lately I think its almost ironic I've lost a few more pounds but nothing earth shattering. Yet lately my friends who see me daily keep commenting how I'm dropping more weight and how I've come so far. Yadda yadda. Now I'm not down playing but when I look in the mirror I'm not seeing a lot of change. I'm still holding at that 11/12 area (yes I put that out there so everyone knows) I haven't dropped to a 9/10 or even my goal of a 7/8. So what am I missing? Could it be the change is more than the weight? Could it be they understand now when I pass when they go to McDonalds? Could be.
Or it might be that I am embracing myself more. I've stopped trying to hide and dress like my Mom would. Now I'm not saying I'm out there in rhinestones but I've noticed I wear less black and more color. Its my way of celebrating every day. We were taught in yoga class Change is the essence of life. Be willing to surrender what you are for what you could become. I guess I'm surrendering to what I am becoming. Joyful. Happy in my skin FINALLY! I can watch the TV ads and not think I will never add up. I walk with my head held high and a smile on my face, not in boast or pride just in joy and contentment. What a gift.