getting back to basics...
Saturday, May 01, 2010
Hello everyone.. It's been a while. It seems I took a side road along the way and somehow got lost in myself and my pride thinking I could never fall back into mindless eating and ignoring the consequences, but for the past two months it seems that I have done exactly that. Yes there were some physical set backs, a surgery with a long recovery and my back being out of commission to exercise before and after the surgery but I know that I could have maintained a much more disciplined eating plan during that time.. I have to say that I am truly frustrated with myself and the 9 lbs I've gained... aggghhh It makes me want to scream but that would not speed up my journey. And I'd rather walk out this journey slowly and conquer my demons than just skip past them and be slimmer.
My focus has got to be on more then just what I eat but why . God is helping me discover so much about myself and why I do the things I do. I consciously took a break from spark because even though I was doing very well, food was still my constant focus.. What have I eaten, how much, how many calories , did i eat enough vegetables , did I do this , did I do that? Yes I need to make healthy choices when I eat but before I eat I need to look at why I'm eating. Am I bored , hungry , tired, thirsty ,lonely ... and how many of those places can be filled by spending time with God instead.
Of course I realize my body needs nutrition but I'm pretty certain it'sbeen getting fed junk when it's actually my spirit that is thirsting for living water instead. I took time to pray about coming back on spark and if I could do it without obsessing about everything. I feel confident that with God's help and his Holy Spirit guiding me I can make wise choices and log them here.
I'm going to be making some changes along the way and letting go of some things also. I cant spend hours checking emails and jumping through hoops for points, But I want to be accountable with my weight, my food and my exercise.
I've missed the fellowship with you all and am glad to be back...
with God's grace, Ready, Set, here I GO>>>>>>