I am so freaking sad.

Thursday, April 29, 2010

I’m feeling so sad. I started college early, at 15, and have been at my community college since. I'm 20, and I'm still pretty much just accomplishing one class a semester with an average grade, and dropping the rest of my classes. I just did bad on a Microbiology test, the first class I've really liked, enjoyed, and cared about. I'm still young, and at least I've accomplished something right? I could be a drug addict right now right? Why don't I feel better. I'm so sad. I wanted to be a medical doctor. Now, with my grades and all my "Withrdaws", I'm not going to get into Physician's Assistant school. I know I have things about myself and that I've done to be proud of myself (& I know I'm using terrible English right now) but I feel like a failure. kskfsdlkfsdkldslfsld!!!!!!!!!!
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  • BET212
    I agree with ANDI_3K. Go see a doctor or a good counselor. They probably have a referral source at your college. When I was in my 20s I went to a counselor because I was sad all the time and I just could not pull out of it (though there were many good things in my life I just could not see it for the cloud of gray that seemed to surround me.). She sent me to a doctor who gave me a Rx and I continued working with the counselor. I honestly believe I would be here today if not for both of those people helping me at a time when I could not help myself. You don't have to do this alone. You are not a failure.

    2917 days ago
    1. Talk to your tutors. They will be more understanding, and possibly lenient, if they know that you are struggling. Hopefully you'll be able to organise extra tutorials or they could let you have extra time to complete assignments if you are finding things difficult.

    2. Bad tests aren't the end of the matter. Learn from your mistakes, revise even harder so you know the material inside out, and try again and again until you make it. I've had bad tests/papers in the past, but doing better on other assessments brought the bad grades up. Don't give up yet!

    3. Start researching how you can make up for the withdraws and average/poor grades. Work experience and volunteering would help distract future employers or colleges from average grades. Are there other courses you can do so that you have enough marks/points to still go to physician's school?

    4. Are you working hard enough? If you're bright enough to attend college three years before most people then you probably shouldn't be failing. Have you pushed yourself enough? You've accomplished something great, but there is more to come. I read this quote recently and it struck a nerve: 'Squandering a great and hard won victory through decadence and laziness. Using past accomplishments as an excuse to ignore current problems. Abandoning the very qualities that brought about initial success.' Be honest with yourself and ask whether any of this applies to you.

    5. Take action. Feel sad, cry, mope, get angry, scream, shout, etc...then stand up and take action. Sitting around complaining will solve nothing. Take action! Even if it's the wrong action, do something. You're only 20 yrs old. Recently there was a 90yr old African who got his degree. You're 70yrs ahead!

    Good luck!
    2917 days ago
  • ANDI_3K
    Go talk to a dr about your depression. Then talk to an admission's counselor about how to get into the program you want. YOU *Can* Do This. College is rough, especially at 15. Maybe there is something you can do to mitigate all those withdraws - there are ways around just about everything. ( and just a word to the wise, after awhile ALL you course work goes away so make sure you get something before that happens. I just found out I have to repeat evry last course because I didn't finish on time.) Hang in, it does get better...but talk to a Dr. and make sure all of this is not due to clinical depression.
    2917 days ago
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