I can't do everything
Thursday, April 29, 2010
My husband like to think he can. And by extension *we* can, and by extension *I* can.
I was just thinking about this last night. I've been doing a really good job lately of "getting things done." And I feel that on our weekends/in free time, my husband and I have started to find a good balance of doing stuff and relaxing/unwinding. Also, I'm getting settled into routines in the new house, and so far have been able to keep it mostly organized and mostly clean (as much as a not-fully-unpacked house can be organized, anyway).
But I still fell into bed last night, 20 minutes later than I intended to, having taken very little time to unwind and really relax into sleeping. I got most everything done that I wanted to yesterday, but at the cost of being all wound up at bedtime. There's always a balance that needs to be struck, and it's an unstable control problem - as soon as you find balance, if left unattended, the thing is liable to topple over. It needs constant attention and adjustment. I suppose the best i can hope for is a closed loop control solution, as it's when i go open loop that i seem to get into trouble.
Sorry to geek out on y'all for a minute there.
In other news, the scale went down 2.4 lbs this morning. I know it's just water weight from drinking enough, eating a bit less absorptive material, and walking a bit more, but it still makes me feel better.
I can't do everything, but I need to to *this*.