Athletes, Marathoners, Fit Mamas... & Me.
Friday, April 23, 2010
That is what my 9am Boot Camp class consists of.
It's Boulder... we have the lowest obesity rate in the country. Some people here think you're weird if you don't seriously take up at least one of the following: running, biking, hiking, rock climbing, kayaking or some kind of sport.
I've been doing this class for 3 weeks now. I'm pretty much always the last person to finish everything.
But I keep pushing.
Thoughts creep into my head... that I shouldn't be here, that I'm not ready, that they're all faster and stronger... I start to feel insecure...
And then I SHOUT, internally, "STOP IT! You're exactly where you're supposed to be! You're doing this for YOU! Because YOU want a super-fit body! Who cares what anyone else thinks?"
So I keep going... through this high intensity, fairly high impact workout. It's borderline torturous at some points. But I KNOW I'll feel amazing afterward.
At the end of the class, the instructor tells me I did a good job. I tell her that I hit the 100 pounds lost mark last week, and I'm trying to get rid of the last 35. She gasps. Some other women overheard. One of them, Carmen, said it gave her goosebumps to think that I changed myself so radically.
They congratulated me for being there. It IS an intimidating class. That's why it's made up of mostly athletes and very fit people.
I could have just been part of the passersby ~ peering into the class, wishing I could muster up the courage to go, but feeling too insecure.
I went it, I gave it my all, and I'm pretty darn proud of myself =)
Here's to ALL OF US challenging ourselves, even in the face of physical, mental or emotional difficulty! Because that's the only way you grow.. that's the only way you get what you want.. that's the only way you set yourself apart from the masses, who are too afraid, lazy or depressed to change their own lives.
LET'S DO THIS!! We can. YOU can. If you start to doubt yourself... do it anyway.
To clarity, to courage, to creating the lives and bodies we want,