I have been feeling guilty for everything lately:
- For my Dad's Alzheimers
- For not being super-human and getting everything done at work and home
- For not keeping up with my Sparkpeople goals
- For not setting a good example for my kids
. . . and the list goes on and on.
As I write these things, I realize that I am the only person who thinks I am guilty of these things. Other people do not see me this way (or at least I don't think they do).
I am not sure how to stop this cycle of feeling guilty ( see - I even feel guilty for feeling guilty), but I am much more than these irrational guilts.
I looked up guilt on Livestrong.com
and found the following definitions:
Feeling of responsibility for negative circumstances that have befallen yourself or others.
* Feeling of regret for your real or imagined misdeeds, both past and present.
* Sense of remorse for thoughts, feelings or attitudes that were or are negative, uncomplimentary or non-accepting concerning yourself or others.
* Feeling of obligation for not pleasing, not helping or not placating another.
* Feeling of bewilderment and lack of balance for not responding to a situation in your typical, stereotype manner.
* Feeling of loss and shame for not having done or said something to someone who is no longer available to you.
* Accepting of responsibility for someone else's misfortune or problem because it bothers you to see that person suffer.
* Motivator to amend all real or perceived wrongs.
* Strong moral sense of right and wrong that inhibits you from choosing a "wrong" course of action; however, you assign your own definitions to the words.
* Driving force or mask behind which irrational beliefs hide.
The last part - mask behind which irrational beliefs hide - Wow! That's me.
Time to take off my mask and be human.