Change in Plans and a Lesson Learned.
Thursday, April 15, 2010
I had decided to return to the gym today. Did not plan on doing a lot on my first day back - 10 mins on the treadmill, 15 mins. on the elliptical, and 15 mins strength training. It felt good packing my gym bag. We have two gyms in the building so I didn't have far to go. Well the bottom line is that I did not go. My boss was traveling to Houston and usually it means that until he is out the door my life is on hold. So when he left at 3:00 p.m. I just decided to take a walk. I ventured a walk around the block and it was a bit difficult but I made it, and will do it again. I left my gym bag at work. I'll work out tomorrow.
I do feel a sense of loss and envy as I see the tourists marching briskly about. I work across the street from the U.S. Capitol and next door to the Japanese Memorial. Union Station is a few blocks away in one direction and the Botanical Gardens are a few blocks away in the other direction. The Smithsonian museums are all in the neighborhood, and in past times I sometimes walked on the Mall during my lunch hour. These are places I would visit as the weather warmed up, before the heavy heat of the summer took over. They're all still there, but so inaccessible right now. It is truly a humbling experience not being able to walk more than a couple hundred feet at a time, but I know it could be worse, so I'm looking at the bright side . . . at least I can still walk. Also, I'm learning not to take things for granted. I'm determined that this disability is not permanent, but for now I do feel a sense of self-pity.
I'm thinking of the days when walking was easy and I would make all the excuses in the world to not work out or go for a walk. Then last July I began Spark People in earnest and I started walking more and working out consistently, which only lasted three months before my legs began to fail me. So if there is a message out there it's that we should use the gifts that God has given us while we can. We never know when they might be taken from us. I firmly believe in learning from experience, mine and other people's, so hopefully someone will take what I'm saying to heart and get moving on their goals (weight or otherwise) before it's too late. I see this as a wake-up call to me and I'm up and wide awake. I'm also looking forward to getting better. Enjoy the day tomorrow; I plan to do the same.