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Waiting to Exhale

Tuesday, April 13, 2010

So, I know I've said this before, but I really felt totally sad and alone yesterday. So many "big" events coming up - positive ones, but still. I really can not believe that my son is going to be 19 years old AND going to college. And what's bad is he's going thru "nest mess" (a friend told me that expression) where he is pushing me away cause of his fears. In the midst of that, I have to remain emotionally stable, calm, and still speak out of peace and love (no, not be a doormat, just let him experience and go thru what he needs to). I also have to be the one to push, encourage, AND do all the paperwork - to make sure he gets in to

And to top it off, my birthday is in between his birthday and graduation...yes, I know every day should be a celebration of life, but I really don't feel 39. A friend said I just need to date a younger

AND...I am STILL fighting (in between windows - or canyons - of stopping, starting, stopping, starting) this friggin weight issue. I am proud that I haven't given up...but tired of fighting each and every day for something. Peace, love, financial stability, feelings of loneliness, abandonment, fat....feels very overwhelming right now.

Breathe in.....breathe out
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    What? Did I miss your b day agin Kell????!!! You know I am bad about that!!! Listen, you ae going to be fine. You are and have been doing a excellent job with your son and you will get throughit. I like what she said. LAUGHTER! I need to do that myself! I LOVE YOU! emoticon
    2988 days ago
    Hey this is too good a time in life to be beating yourself up!! Stop, take care of yourself 1st - otherwise you wont be able to take care of anyone else.

    You are just starting in Spark, there are wonderful tools, use them. Record you food intake, get a pedometer so you will understand how much more you need to do. I am still trying to get to 5000 steps a day. We all need do be doing 10,000 steps.

    Laughter really is the best medicine. Don't take everything to be such a major deal. Write down, mark them off and have fun doing everything you do.

    We will be seeing less of you before you know it, whether it pounds or inches.

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    2993 days ago
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