I Fricken Love Spring
Monday, April 12, 2010
Today, its so gorgeous out that I'm hating being inside. I have some stuff to share, so a blog prior to playtime(exercise) is warranted!
First of all, I'm quitting smoking today. I just smoked my last cigarette. I'm not chemically addicted to them per say. I find myself wanting them because I'm a creature of habit. Like, I routinely smoke on my way to work, on my breaks and lunch, right when I get home, and at certain points throughout the rest of the day. When one of those times comes up, I'm like "oh cigarette!" THAT for me will be the toughest part. I hate smoking, how they make me feel, the smell, everything. Over it for sure. I definitely need some support for this venture.
Second, I lost a pound! This is coming back from my small maintence phase. I quit logging and I wasn't really exercising there for a while. I kind of wanted to see if I HAD to track, or if I could count on myself and what I've learned to keep losing, or mainting my weight. I maintained it and thats even with fast food and chinese making up most of my dinners. The lady and I are back on track. The beginning of spring was really a catapult in getting back on track. The weather is so nice that we aren't confined to using the elliptical. We had a friend move in and the elliptical space was comprimised, so now we dont have room for it. I'm really happy to see 217 on the scale for the first time ever. I remember being 150, then 250 so I've never actually SEEN anything lower than 218 on a scale. Yay!
THEN today, a coworker of mine(keep in mind I've only had this job 2-3 months) asked me today if I've lost weight. I thanked her for the comment because it totally caught me off guard. Thats the first time I've heard that in my LIFE. Weeeee!!!! It puts me on top of the world and makes me feel like I can do anything!
Lastly, my clothes are getting ridiculous. I've lost 33 pounds from my highest weight ever(that I'm aware of), and 23 pounds from where I started spark. Anyways, I bought pants for my new job, and they are falling off of me. We were playing a random game of bandminton and my pants kept falling down. Not only my pants, but my unmentionables as well. Its really exciting as I've never seen progress like this before.
I'm really thinking I have this ultimate fear of losing weight. Being fat is all I've ever know. Everytime I start losing weight I get scared right around this point, usually 220 because I've never gotten below that before. I freak out at this point and stop trying. I dont want to do that this time, I want my weight loss to keep going. Its something I'm dealing with and blogging about. I'm aware of my issue now so I'm not going to let myself give up!
Gosh I feel like I have sooooo much to say, haha, its all starting to get jumbled.
Where was I.....
I think....I think that is all. For now anyways. I need to take some new pictures and give you guys a photo update! The lady and I, in the celebration of the warmer weather, rearranged our room. Its soo much better in there and it makes my mind feel better. I need to sit down and clearly map out some revised fitness goals since I slacked these last few months. Atleast I didn't gain any back and I'm right where I left off.
I hope you all are taking advantage of the nice weather(if you are having some!) and getting outside. I'll update again soon, pinky swear