Thoughts of Mine and How I found GrandMother Willow.
Saturday, April 10, 2010
I have struggled with weight and with being a negative glass have full person all of my life>As far back as I remember even as a child.I thought what is the point of trying to have this or that or belief I am worthy of such things .Even Happiness much less be slim and what I always perceive as beautiful.
I am sad to say I spent most of my adult life the same way.Then a few years back I came to see things a bit more clear as my son would say the fog rolled out.Alot to the love and compassion of my Sons and my DIL. I found strength and love in my self I never knew I had.I started to think why can't I be happy and have more even have it all.Then I found SP and then the Secret and PP and each one helped me more to be open to seeing things in a brighter light and see myself as the beauty with in,Not all beauty is on the surface. Then I Was blessed with a beautiful grandson that I knew all I want was for him to see nothing but positive in everything and all that touched him.So that is when I started my guest to be a Grandmother Willow.To be able to flow and bend with any storm.Not to Break or buckle but to sway till the storm went by.Knowing my little one was protected by me and my ability to bend.Then I got to remembering a old Hymn called the Light House.And I realized I too could be a light house for all of those I encountered that if I believed and stayed positive filled with love , light and beauty. I could shine for all those I would encounter As I did all of this I also found the most wonderful man and love like I had never knew it before.I know without my choosing to become the Great willow/oak as well as the Lighthouse I would never found him.So when you do this you will change your corner of the world as well as you will the rest of the world.
Now as part of my morning and night time prayer and mediation I do ask for the strength to stay positive and be the beacon and the strength for those that will need to lean on me. To gain support and strength from me like the mighty oak and/or willow. I will sway and bend but never break. As I shine as a mighty light house shining threw any and all storms.
Just as I have learn this I have also learn with it comes something that you most do to be a true light and a positive and that is I can forgive all the things that happen in my past. Letting it go does not mean i have to welcome any of those that are negative or negative things into my life. I can let go and let god and leave it there and not pick it up and carry it like a cross on my back i have done that and it is ok to for me to lay it down.
As a true Beacon and Great willow/oak knows when it is time to shake it off shine in another way.And Yet be all that I am meant to be and that is a Beautiful Grandmother willow to all I encounter friends,family or just that just happen by.
So when you shine that Positive out to the world it does not just change you but it does Change the world.And it is never to
Late or to Early to be that Beacon.