Letting myself off the hook (stream of conciousness)

Well, it's been a while since I've blogged and I have to get some things off my chest...

First off, I do not like to fail and I also tend to be over ambitious at times. I am very mad at myself because last week I think I over set my goals and had trouble reaching them. Now, I am struggling with a decision to keep pushing forward and be miserable or just go back and reduce the goals to a more reasonable level and I am not happy about that bc I feel like I am failing. either way.

I think I should reduce my weekly exercise goal from 3500 calories burned each week (in exercise) to 3250. The month prior it was 3000. The jump from 3000 to 3500 was just too high. This week, I got too tired and too hungry and then had several bad days where I ate things I should not have eaten (self loathing & anger is starting to kick in). I also feel like I am burning out and THAT is NOT good!!!

DEEP BREATH...(self talk)...OK, what if I SLOWED down my goal setting to something more attainable so I can experience success instead of failure? HMMM, would people think I was being a cry-baby and not giving it my all, or would they think I was smart and clever for setting myself up for success and doing things gradually so long term healthy habits are set in place for a LIFETIME of good health? (More self talk)...WHO THE HELL CARES WHAT OTHER PEOPLE THINK AS LONG AS YOU ARE HAPPY WITH YOURSELF??!!

So, I am slowing down a bit as I believe I have gotten ahead of myself.

My NEW Short Term exercise goals are:

Exercise to burn 3250 calories per week:
Complete the Couch to 5K program in 12 weeks or less (doing this 3x a week)
Do 10 minutes of Pilates 3x a week (on Couch to 5K training days)
Continue my "gentle/low impact" WATP DVDs 4 days a week

DEEP BREATH - whew!! I feel better just getting it out there! After all, slow and steady wins the race, right?

Keep on Sparking!!!