This afternoon, when I got back from the IME (2nd opinion) for my right knee (from the fall on the ice in February, 2009) I was frustrated to put it mildly. I arrived early for my appointment, but spent the time filling out pages of forms til they called me in to see the doctor. Forget the library book I brought to read.
This is basically the summery:
His opinion (HO): get an MRI, that the lateral release may not help. It's not like the torn meniscus you had in the other knee.
My query (MQ): Ok, what of all the pain when I go up and down stairs, and when it gives out under me. I exercise, use my recumbent bike, and it hurts no matter what. Some days worse than others. Once in a great while, not at all.
HO: No doubt it got hurt when you fell on the ice. Get an MRI to see how the patella is tracking.
MQ: NA ( what could I say anyway = he is entitled to his second opinion.)
Deep breath, ask about how to get a report, and ponder what the next step is. Call my dr., call worker's comp, or wait til I get a report, if I get a report. Ugh.
When comp doesn't hear from me, they think I am all fine and dandy. Blah.
And did I mention how I hate MRI's? Perhaps this can be another open one, then I would not need sedation. (This will be MRI # 5 since Feb. 2009)
Regarding my lumbar spine the Dec. 2nd opinion was - yes you need surgery - but lose weight. (Hey, I am working on it.) Did I mention Sciatica?
Regarding my cervical spine - the Dec. 2nd opinion - nothing is needed, but since then nerve damage has developed, and now it is precarious. My left arm/elbow is weak, and in pain nearly all the time. Augh!
Ok. How do I deal with the pain and frustration? literally.
First, I went to the grocery store to buy healthy food so I would not be tempted to steal my son's easter chocolate. check.
Second, eat a late lunch - healthy. Drink my water. Glub, Glub, Glub... check.
Third, push frustration out the door. Check
As I told the Doc today, It does not matter what I do, it is going to hurt, so I ride my recumbent bike, and do my PT exercises. So, once I was nourished, and watered, I put on my motivational trainer to listen to, and pushed through my 30 minute interval on the recumbent bike.
Then, I pushed the coffee table out of the way, got my workout padding on the floor, and did 17 minutes PT and strengthening stretches and crunches.
Then, I ate a banana, and drank more water.
My supper: will be a salad and a little turkey, and probably a yogurt. After I push more frustration out the door by entertaining and exercising myself on my wii fit. Nothing like a little Kung fu, or balance games to make me giggle.
Giggling sounds good right now. Why not. I may as well doctor myself with eating well, and getting fit, because the pros are really not doing anything "real" for me. This is as real as I can get. As long as I am not making anything worse, the weight loss has got to help, even if it does not eliminate the pain, it has got to lessen the pressure of carrying too much body weight.
That's it. The frustration is gone. I am in control of me right now.
Now the fun begins.