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Failure , Fraud , frightened...

Wednesday, April 07, 2010

These 3 words are who I am right now. for 2 wks I have been completely off plan food wise( exercise has always been great) and before those 2 wks I was off and on plan for the other 2 wks of March. I promised myself that April would be different and it hasn't been. I am always hungry, and no I am not pregnant. I start by eating a little extra and then just pig out. I know I can do better, I know I am worth it and I know that only I can do this, but I don't know what is wrong with me. I did so well for the first 6-7 months and now I am out of control. I hate coming to sparkpeople because I know I am so off plan. Today a guy stopped me who works at a place I walk by daily for the past 7 months and said congratulations you are doing so well on the weight loss, and I just felt so bad because I am doing so bad and don't deserve the congrats right now. I know it is up to me , and just posting about it helps, but it wont stop until I work on it. Today is not the end but the beginning. Cheryl
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    What food plan are you on? I go through cycles where sometimes I feel famished. I've learned that pigging out is absolutely fine during those times, as long as it's my body that's hungry (not my mind/emotions), and as long as I'm pigging out on something that's pretty healthy. It doesn't have to be celery or carrot sticks (unless that's what you're hungry for of course). When I go through the famished phases, I have to ask myself... is that my body talking or my emotions? If it's my body, I eat (and always keep healthy snacks around, one of my favorites is whole grain melba toast and vegan cream cheese). If it's my emotions, I go for a walk or something. So glad you're blogging about it. Hang in there, you're doing great!!!
    2937 days ago

    1st of all, quit kicking yourself!
    2nd someone complimented you! Accept it humbly at the very least!
    3rd don't make your goals too challenging for yourself.

    Live just for today.
    Today, I will not binge (which sounds like your dilemma)
    Today I will eat only healthy food.
    Today when I feel a need to eat a snack it will be either raw veggies or fresh fruit.

    You said yourself that today is the beginning. Make it happen!
    Find someone to be accountable to daily who will encourage you.

    Hang in there! You've lost 69 pounds! That's nothing to sneeze at! That, my sparkfriend, is excellent!

    I read Dr Neal Barnard's book "Turn off the Fat Genes" and that helped me to NOT blame myself and gave me something to work on.

    Have a great day and look up, not down!


    2937 days ago

    Comment edited on: 4/7/2010 8:31:21 AM
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